Lost in Liefdesverdriet

Let me dream

 a dream for you

And make it come true

Even if it's not

 about me and you

Even if it's not about 

you loving me too

Let me completely confess 

that my love

 never becomes less

I know I'm more

 of a living mess

that only gives you

 constant stress

But let me love you, 

that's all I beg of you

Let me remember you

 till life's after-end,

Even if I'm still

 not your friend

I love you, only you

Even if you never feel

 the same way too

 I wish I could forget you

 but it's not helping me

 to get away from you

and the spellbinding

 thought of you

 I love you like 

there's nothing new,

like everyday is just

 for the memory of you

Just for the love

 unanswered by you 

You and only you

Let me whisper her sweetest

 utterances in your ear

Let me feel her 

ever-gigantic love for you

As if I were her

 loving you with no fear

But let me do it alone

As I compose the unfolded

bildungsroman of a love un-won

Let me march with 

my massive mirrorings

Without strumming and striking

reality's wobbly strings

Let me not wish

 a wish for me

If it means setting you free

and leaving you be

Let me solemnly suffer

to love you even better

Let me soberly suffocate

to feel love instead of hate

Let me be

who I want to be

Even if it's not what

my bleeding soul

wants to see

Let stalagmite one-sidedness

plunge stalactite pain

into my battle-bruised back

Let my jet-streaming feelings be

back to back in jet black

Let me mourn 

for a love unborn 

and timeworn

Let me pretend

there's no other asphyxial

love to comprehend

Let me be stick in the mud

For you are the first

 and the last love

I wish to have...

but never had!