''Hold my hand." she said. "Don't worry, I'll be here forever, with you."
How happy I was then. I finally found someone. First, a friend, then, love.
Now I'm standing in front of the window, watching raindrops on the window. I can see my reflection and tears falling down. At least, I'm not crying alone. I have this rain with me. While I was watching the window, I saw something. It wasn't me. Just 'someone' standing there, looking like a human, but not that. I turn around and start to look at the photo on the table. From last year, we, holiday, enjoying and laughing. I can't watch it. Slowly, I'm going to my bed, taking headphones and turning off the world. Everything around me. I can feel how the pillow is getting wet under my skin, but I don't care. Guess I don't care about anything right now. She is gone, and I'm gone. I'm not alive anymore. Just walking and breathing. Maybe I should stop doing that, it would be easier. "I'm here." I can still hear her voice. Closing my eyes, setting the volume to the highest and...