It was a sunny day; I was going for a movie with my friends and on my way, I saw a girl standing in the middle of the road. She looked as if she is unaware of her actions and her own presence. She was confused, depressed and lost in her own world. She couldn’t find out what she was looking for. Love, care, hatred or for herself? I think she was looking for unanswered questions or may be something else but I think she was running around in search of happiness which even I was trying to find in her. Where that happiness was gone? I went close to her and looked deep into her eyes. She needed a hug I guess. I asked her if she is fine and she burst into tears. She couldn’t speak at all. I asked her if she needs any help and she gestured that she wants to cross the road. I asked her to hold my hand and she hold it so tight that I felt she doesn’t want to leave it now.
That walk of 30 secs made me feel as if she was alone and all her life she adorned herself for being alone but now she couldn’t. That jolly girl who used to laugh and giggle around is now turning into a lady – a matured lady. She was hurt a lot many times, she was broken and torn apart but she again raised herself and she came up in her life but is she the same? She never wanted to see herself like this. What was wrong with her? I could see through her teary eyes, she was hurt and she was searching for someone who can love her, give her all care and affection she was deprived of. She needed that one person who could make her feel like princess in this world and only one who has been raised in arms of a Queen could give her. She was not alone but she had a pool of memories with her and she wanted to dump them altogether. She wanted to take a step forward but she couldn’t. Was it her fault to fall in love? What mistakes she made in her life? She was tired of praying god for giving her good times but those good times never came in her life and when those moments came, she couldn’t figure out if they are good ones and when those moments were gone she felt the presence. Was she into so much of sorrows and grief that she couldn’t identify her own place and world of happiness? Why was this happening to her? Was god trying to make her a woman who had gone through everything in her life and now she is not ready to take anymore? Was that the end of her learning or there was a lot yet to come in her life? Was this happened for the last time or she still has to face this till she lose all hope and she dies?
God has made plans for all of us but then why we come across so many failures in our life that we even forget to cherish the best times that we have in life. Is life all about worrying or is it about enjoying the sorrows and joys together? What is it? I am still trying to find out the meaning of life. If he was supposed to leave her, why they met? To break her apart into pieces? She had questions in her eyes, why did he come and when will she get the person who can hug her so tight that all her broken pieces make her the same person again. She wanted to see the change happening in her life and she wanted to feel that change. I couldn’t say anything to her and all I could do was just look at her standing in the middle of the road, help her crossing it and den leave. But meeting her for few seconds brought a tsunami of thoughts inside me. Is this what one knows as Love? Is this what love does to someone? If this is how it is then I want to remain alone for the rest of my life because I couldn’t be as strong as her.