Mask which I am wearing

I am trying my best

To hide the pain

Hide the tears

that fall roll over my cheek every night

People ask me If I am okay

And I end up saying I am totally fine

Oh that is just my contact lenses that is why my eyes are watery

The hurt in my eyes is all that has to be said to you

The pain is the only thing I feel though

The pain inside, not my eyes

Every night I am wide awake trying to sleep

Checking the clock every two minutes

And it says 3:07 a.m.

Still I don't make a single sound

No one knows how I feel deep down in my heart

I need to let it out.

Nobody knows how different I am on the inside

The outside of me is not depressed

Its full of smiles

But deep down its hurting like shit

I need to repair my heart

But how?

I am breathing but I am half dead already

It looks like I am wearing a mask

So that no one can see my real face

And for some reason

That seems like the ultimate goal of life

                  -Shruti Kapoor