I am trying my best
To hide the pain
Hide the tears
that fall roll over my cheek every night
People ask me If I am okay
And I end up saying I am totally fine
Oh that is just my contact lenses that is why my eyes are watery
The hurt in my eyes is all that has to be said to you
The pain is the only thing I feel though
The pain inside, not my eyes
Every night I am wide awake trying to sleep
Checking the clock every two minutes
And it says 3:07 a.m.
Still I don't make a single sound
No one knows how I feel deep down in my heart
I need to let it out.
Nobody knows how different I am on the inside
The outside of me is not depressed
Its full of smiles
But deep down its hurting like shit
I need to repair my heart
But how?
I am breathing but I am half dead already
It looks like I am wearing a mask
So that no one can see my real face
And for some reason
That seems like the ultimate goal of life
-Shruti Kapoor