Maybe

Maybe,
In a parallel universe,
You are the one hurting instead of me.

Maybe,
All of the pain, tears, and scars,
The sleepless nights,
Your broken promises,
Your words dangling in the wind,
The ink I've bled for you,
Cold cups of coffee,
Unplayed songs,
Ignored messages,
Forgotten nicknames,
Scribbled thoughts,
Piles of crumpled papers,
The poems stuck in my throat
Dying to break free and slam you in the face,
They won't matter anymore.

All of the storms I've endured
All of the rain I've let myself get drenched
All of the words I've swallowed
All of your sweet talks and shit
All of your lies that used to be my truth
All of your crap I went through
All of me that was "me" because of you
All of the sadness that turned into anger

All of these that make me remember you
The "you" before you decided I wasn't who you wanted
Before you decided I was too dark
Like I was the color black
But you wanted blue
Or maybe red, purple, green
Before you decided I was like her
I was like her, but I wasn't her
Before you decided coffee was too bitter
But I am like coffee and you were my coffee
And you know how bad coffee is for me
Before you decided I am too messed up
That I don't make sense even in my own head
Before you decided that you wanted out
And you walked out without even a goodbye

Maybe,
I'll stop writing about you soon
I'll run out of ink and paper
My tears will dry up
My shattered pieces will come back together
And I won't need you

I won't look for you when I can't sleep at night
I won't call you when my world's falling apart
I won't crave for your warmth when I'm left freezing in the cold
I won't search for your smile, your laugh, your voice
I won't search for you

Maybe,
I'll wake up one morning
And your name will just be a name.
I'll listen to love songs and read romantic stories
And I won't think of you
I'll fall in love with a boy with a nice smile
And he won't be you

And maybe one day,
All of these maybes will no longer be maybes
And maybe,
All of our almosts and uncertainties
All of the wounds you've left behind
Will cease into nothing
but a faint memory
of what used to be my everything