It's when I saw the two names together,the realization hit me. I don't really have what I wanted. It's funny how most of the times the things you want and the things you have, end up being straight opposites, more over just absurdly unfair.
What you wish from the bottom of your heart, at that moment kind of mocks what you have and it becomes so damn difficult to be happy with what you have and you are finally left with nothing but thoughts of whether you will ever be content in life, whether you'll ever be even close to okay.
For me it's a priority not to hurt people, what if what you have comes to know about what you want?And what if what you want doesn't want you back?
I am all for peace and serenity but sometimes I wish I was worth fighting for...