MS

I can never get your picture erased from my memory. Your picture during that time when you were so pissed off, and you can't stop cursing. And it's so lovely how you stay cute even when you're so pissed off. And that picture when you smiled so silly when I mentioned food. I can never really get enough of that smile. It was a smile I can never forget.

Those pictures of you inside my head are the only ones worth dreaming of. Each smile you make is worth a thousand fantasies. Each hug you give is more than all I can daydream about. The feel of your soft skin would be heavenly, as long as heaven can exist comparable to you. The smell of your hair is more unforgettable than the scent of a meadow of daisies. Just the thought of you makes me feel all better. So much better.

I remember that time when you were so upset and you kept worrying about that college entrance test. You were so anxious, but it was the best thing when you came to me asking for my help. But, at the same time, that's just cruel. If only you know, I can never say no to you. Our conversations are all dead on arrival. It will always and always end up with me falling in love with you. With your silly jokes. With your unbelievable innocence. With your weird expressions. And how you manage to stay so cute whenever you're mad or upset.

Do you remember that time when our teacher arranged our seats and I had to move? You have no idea how happy I was when you tried to pull me back. Though I had to leave my favorite spot, me sitting right next to you, I was so happy when I felt that tug. It was that tug that immediately gave dawn on me, that maybe, it was also your favorite spot. Otherwise why would you try to pull me back?

I know it's wrong. And I know I can't involve you with my damned circumstances. I know that well enough. That's why whenever I dream of you, I do my best to feel you. To reach you. In that world where nothing even matters. Even the fact that we're both girls.

Yours silly,

Chloe Shane

MS I love you.