I'm sorry if I get took absurd when I open myself up. I'm sorry if I nearly loose myself when somebody's around and I can't even mingle with them. I'm sorry if I annoy you because I like talking only to you. I apologize for being so dependent that I can't even learn how to stand by myself.
Once I am at the peak. I got the fame, the respect of the people around me- I also got the greatest of their trust. I learned in an early stage where I belong and where I depart from. I am with my friends, friends who are always there for me when I am alone.
I never get tired of anything. I never thought of giving up on something that I want. I am a man ready to fight against everything for the ones I love. I am a man ready to sacrifice everything so that nobody I love will leave me. But there is just one problem- I am dependent enough that my happiness depends on someone's deeds and whose achievements were inspire by the people I cherish but left me feeling unwanted.
It was like darkness loves me. It dances with me like a lover and the moon comes up under the purple hill and what was sweet smells like flower- no- smells like poison. I overthink too much that I can't even entertain positive things anymore.
I am sorry for being this. I don't know how to hold my situation that I always rely to you. I rely to people too much that my attention depends on them too. I just can't help being this and my mind took it seriously.
I never got too centered to myself but there is one thing that I know, "an over inflated ego wrapped in an underserved sense of entitlement earns a first class ticket at the back of the queue." Again, my apology.