You know that feeling when you think that you are finally over someone? When you are feeling ecstatic that your heart isn't aching anymore for that one person? I think you know. I had that feeling for a long time. There is a quote by Margaret Thatcher that goes like this “To wear your heart on your sleeve isn't a very good plan; you should wear it inside, where it functions best", and I agree with that. If you start showing your emotions some people will take advantage of that. But sometimes you just don't have a choice or you don't even realise that you are expressing your emotions. I had that the other day. My best friend and I were out in town and we were talking about her ex-boyfriend, whom she had just broken with. I comforted her and saying that the first week after a break-up is the worst, but that it eventually will get better. Maybe it will take some time, but it will get better. She asked me about my former love, how he was and what my sweetest memory was of him. I told her and I was grinning the whole time. I felt so happy. I was talking about him like we were still together. After that she asked me "you miss him, do you?", I looked down when she asked me that. I realized that I still miss him and that I wasn't over him. I never was, I thought was. I was actually lying to myself in order to feel a little better. But how can I be happy by lying to myself? I realize that I must give myself time to recover from this broken love. My priority is to make myself happy, because then I can make other people happy. I'm confident and I will lift myself up, but it will take some time I know that. The glass isn't half empty, it's half full.
The heart can only take much. Sometimes I think that the heart is the strongest part of my body but it isn't, the mind is the strongest part of my body. It is the strongest part of me. You know why? My mind can either make me or break me. I can build myself up by thinking 'I can do this. I will succeed', because I'm believing in myself. I'm thinking myself into happiness if that makes any sense. But I can also break myself, yes that's possible. Someone can break themselves, not on purpose, but it happens. Certain things in life can come along that will make you feel weak or just bring you down. But when that happens it's up to you to face those things, see reality, and think 'am I going to learn from it, or live in agony?'. I know it sounds so simple, but I also know that it isn't. Sometimes it takes even years, or a lifetime, to rebuild yourself. I've had certain losses that I'm still recovering from, so I know that it takes time. But I will get there in the end. You will get there in the end.