The Psychiatrist
The next day I had an appointment with doctor Avni Sen, the psychiatrist. Her living room had a glamorous look that reflected her taste of paintings and calligraphy. After five minutes of waiting the interrogation session began. It was the third time and though the previous ones were of no use, I hoped that some way might come out to end this.
After my first two visit, I had already made an idea of their actual job. They are no better than those who gift children with a baloon or a lollipop just to distract their attention and make them feel better for temporary. I too was recommended some antidepressant which I never took. I complained that they gave me terrible headaches whereas the fact was I deliberately avoided taking something that might lead to any addiction.
Dr: So how are you?
Me: Situation hasn't improved since my last visit. Just the same.
Dr: You still see her.
Me: Yes.
She took a light pause and started again.
Dr: I dont think you are trying at all.
Me: Thats not the case doctor. I am trying my level best. Infact she wants it too.
Dr: She ? You mean her?
Me: Yes, she wants the exact thing you want.
Dr: And what do you want? To remain like this? To keep giving birth to fantastical imaginations that occupy your real world?
Me: I haven't come here to argue. I just need your help thats all.
Dr: But I cant help you, unless you try to help yourself. First of all stop referring to whatever you see as 'her'. You know it doesn't exist. Its just a creation of your imagination. If required kill it, like any character in your story.
Me: No character is ever dead. They keep living in our mind. You cant just kill someone from your mind, you are a psychiatrist, you know this better than me.
Dr: Our mind is tough business. No one has ever made a perfect study of these things like emotions, feelings, imagination. Maybe thats why we cannot give an exact solution to problem faced by our patients, but its always better to calm them down. In your case , I find you quite calm and unperturbed. It appears that she has become a part of your life and that hardly matters to you, atleast in a negative manner. Then why are you here?
Me: Its because of her. She wants me to free her. Give me some medicine doctor please, so that I could erase her totally from my mind.
I broke down in the middle of my sentence. The concern in her eyes did not pass unnoticed. It was indeed one of the most strange cases that she had handled in her past 10 years of experience.
Dr: Relax. You are going to be okay. Its mainly because you are so secluded in life. Just hang out with people, make new friends, and who knows she might not be there someday. Perhaps she would be gone FOREVER.
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I lay on my bed, my eyes fixed to the tick-tock motion of the pendulum of the wall clock. Her soft hand caressed my forehead, it made me feel better after the happenings that day.
Me: I tried. Sorry, I don't think its ever going to happen.
Her: Its okay. I know you gave in your best and you know what , i doesn't bother me as long as you try. 'Keep trying' is all I want.
Me: She said that one day you will be gone, that I would never see you again.
Her: And that makes you afraid huh! She mocked.
Me: Come on, I am not a child.
Her: But you are. She laughed.
I pulled her on my lap and wrapped my hands around her smooth shoulders , gently kissing her neck, smelling through her hair, biting her ears.
Me: I love you ( I whispered).
She did not answer. Both of us tried to feel the pleasure of the moment , completely forgetting reality. We were lost in our own dreamland.
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https://www.launchora.com/story/my-imaginary-girlfriendpart-4
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