The next morning while coming out of the shower I found Anuj in my room. Though we did not talk so often yet he was among the few of my good friends.
"Hey, Anuj whatsup!"
"Happy birthday man"
"What? Who told you?"
"I guess the entire college knows its your birthday"- he smirked and I hated that.
"And how was your night?"
"Do you know something?"
"Maybe"
I hated it when someone would just pop into my personal life out of nowhere, they must have other jobs also- silly people.
"And I think I deserve a special thanks because it was me who let your girlfriend enter last night. The guard wouldn't let her so I had to pull some strings until he allowed"
"What did you do?"
"Doesnt matter, but man you got a girlfriend you never told me?"
"She is not my girlfriend"
"She isnt? Allright, if you are not willing to tell me I wont force you"
"Dont be a bitch, she is not my girlfriend seriously. Just that, its not happening both ways- like a one way traffic"
"I dont believe bro, if you were nothing to her she wouldn't be here at the dead of the night. If she doesn't admit it you have to get her into this. Make her say the way she feels about you. Girls are a bit different , even if they are in love they just wont admit it, we need to give them a push thats all.
"I am not sure if she is ready yet, maybe its better I give her sometime"
"You take time man, and then one day you would wish if this time could be reverted back to the former one. Anyway we arranged a small party for you this afternoon at the 'Plaza'. So dont be on your regular outing today - He mockingly laughed and left.
"Thanks Anuj"
He was right, I was special to her and day by day it was getting different - my life was changing. something happened , I knew what but could not describe, like a thousand splendid stars lighting up my life in an unknown galaxy, that feeling when everything suddenly turns out to be real and reasonable, when we could get lost in meaninglessness for hours. Living a dull life for so long it was difficult for me to adjust to this newness. She made me happy , that was all I could describe in words, but was doubtful if she felt the same for me. One day I took that risk of telling her about it. It was a sunday afternoon and her aunt had went off to Pune. She invited me at her place for lunch which was my perfect oppurtunity.
Me: Meghna, I want to tell you something.
Her: When from did we start taking permission to talk with each other.
Me: Its a bit different actually, I fumbled, and her face became serious.
Her: What is it?
Me:See, dont judge me or misunderstand me, but I think its time I should tell you what I feel about............. I could not speak properly, I was nervous.
Her: About?
Me: About us.
Her: What? Her face bore a clumsy expression as soon as I broke through that word 'us'.
Me: I have been thinking about you a lot lately and I think , theres something more to this.
Her: Okay, take your time.
Me: What?
Her: Take your time, because this can go on for a while.
Me: Seriously what?
Her: Say what you are gonna say.
She knew what I was gonna say , but she just wanted to hear it from me.
Me: I love you.
And that was followed by a moment of silence which felt like eternity. As if a heavy load was on my head, which kept getting heavier with every passing second.
Her: Look Neel, this would be difficult for me. You are my best friend and I really enjoy this special connection between us but it will be hard to be in love with you, you understand right? Loving someone who really matters to you a lot, who means everything to you. This is going to be huge, I am afraid if we ever broke up......
Me: Hey no, why would you possibly think that, we will never break up and if I do you will pull me by my ears and make me follow the right path.
Her: Its not a joke Neel. She was moved to tears by then
Me: Look, if you really feel there is something special between us , lets give that a name. And there will be no future probability of break up because this will be a mutual agreement between both of us and only you have the right to declare its norms. I have already decided it Meghna, whether you pass the bill or not, it has already been passed by me, and I will be there waiting for your answer even if it means waiting till eternity.
Her: Did you prepare that entire speech.
Me: I thought I would say it on our wedding.
Her: You are such a moron - she kept punching my chest while I grabbed her back bringing us closer.
Her- I love you too - she whispered.
She tried to get me out of her but I was adamant, slowly covering her up through me. The magnitude of her resistance was slowly decreasing as I advanced further. Implanting a gentle kiss on her neck, I ran my fingers all over her rough curls. She kissed back while making desperate attempts to push me away. I carried her upto the bedroom,meanwhile managing her punches and kicks that she threw in the air.
Her: You are a jerk. A bloody fucker.
Me: Thank you, thats a compliment nobody ever gave me.
When I landed her on the bed , she looked more pretty in all the messed up hair and ugly crunchy look.
Her: Are you sure we should do this.
Me: I wont if you tell me not to. I told you right, from now on this thread is in your hands, you decide which way to take this.
Her: Shut up please. She kept punching my belly button while I embraced her in my arms nearing the distance in between. I closed my lips upon hers meanwhile trying to control the disco dancing of hormones in me. She lied on the bed, while i steadily entered her body closing the blanket over us.
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Her: Was it your first time? She sounded curious.
Me: Yes. I blurted. I was too tired to talk in sentence. My entire body was clamped in her and it took me a bit of effort to get me out of her. As I laid beside, messed up in sweat , breathing hard, I saw her smiling at me.
Her: You look so red.
Me: Was I not good?
She was laughing when I said it.
Me: All right, I am still on now. We can do this one more time.
Her:Hey, it was okay. Considering that its your first time. She was clearly mocking me playing with my manhood sentiments. So far I was enjoying my game, it was her turn then.
Me:So you had done it before?
Her: Yeah, twice.
Me: With the same guy.
Her: Nope , different ones. Those were not even a relationship, just for fun.
Me: And is this a relationship?
Her: I am afraid , it is.
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How simple it is when we would meet a person fall in love and thats it. When both are ready to spend their entire lives together without keeping any room for complaints and complications. The sky over the head remains clear like a never ending spring and suddenly a day comes when it fills up with unexpected thunder and lightning out of nowhere. The possibilities that we had never taken into consideration start occupying our lives, and by the time we gather the strength to battle it out, its over. You lost the game, thats how destiny plays it- the cheater.