I've wasted so much ink for you
Tainted hundreds of pages on my precious notebook
Thousands of variations using the letters in the alphabet
But still, nothing could explain how you make me feel
I've probably drank more coffee than I should have
Trying to flush away whatever this is
But, somehow, you remind me of coffee
Sweet yet bitter, and yes, bad for me
I see a piece of you in everything
Or maybe I see a piece of everything in you
You remind me of almost everything
Or maybe almost everything reminds me of you
God, I hope that made sense
Nothing makes sense anymore
Not even my own thoughts and words
A foreigner in my own body
I used to have everything figured out
I had these perfect plans in my head
Of where to go, what to do, and when
But now, I even forget to drink my medicine
Words came easy to me
Describing vividly every feeling that I had
But now, I can't seem to find the right words
Even with the dictionary by my side
Doing researches have always been a pain
The dreaded deadlines, word counts, and formats
The godforsaken panels and proposals
But, I'd take that over this any day
Everything was in order
There was comfort in knowing
There was Physics to trust
And even cheat sheets in times of need
Being best in Math used to be an honor
It felt good to be looked up to
People would often ask me for help
And it was okay - numbers were easy
But you, you are more than a complex equation
I've tried countless formulas - some I can't pronounce
I don't even know what variables to use or look for
You're probably the only problem I can't solve