Lately I started watching this TV show "Awkward" where the heroine wrote her diaries in this blog, so I thought maybe I could do the same since I do have a lot to tell but I don't know how to ...
Anyway unlike her, my life has not that much to tell, but considering I'm a medical student in my 3rd year, I have quite a work to do and with the little time I have for myself between being a trainee in the morning and a student in the evening, I should be busy with my life to feel bored, right ?! But , I AM REALLY BORED ....
I feel frustrated to have such feelings in a young age, but I do have them. And worst I feel lost and I don't even know how to cure myself so how can I do that to patients. I'm going though a lot like a LOT of stress and anxiousness, yeah I know life can be harsh sometimes but it's harsher when you don't even know what's wrong with you so you can fixe it.
Watching TV, Reading Manga, Going out, Talking to your Bestie, Eating Your favorite food, Sleeping all day .... All Of that and more doesn't give me the pleasure that I want anymore, it's like I'm a zombie .... What do I need ?
Maybe a trip for 2 or 3 months to some island without a reception or connection but only nature and me will be just great to refresh my soul, cause I'm fed up with this clocked life.
To tell the truth my life did have some excitement in the past, also it did have some heartbreaking moments. Maybe it's all in the past but it looks like I'm not over it yet if it's not for being busy with the study thing, But that is quite a story in itself so I'll leave it for another chance ......