I'v never told anyone about my life so here goes nothing. I'm 12 years old. I'm a transgender male. (this means I was born a girl but know I should have been a boy) My two best friends in the world and Carly and Ailie and they won't know most of the stuff i'm about to write.
My Family
I have three brothers: Elisha who is my real brother, Antony who is my stepbrother, and Robert who is also my stepbrother. I also have four sisters: Heaven who is my real sister, Cassandra who is also my real sister, Nakita who is my stepsister, and Chanel who is my other stepsister.
How I was Born
So where do I start? Well I guess i'll start from here. I was suppose to have a bunch of problems like getting sick all the time, having brain problems, and having leg and arm problems. I was also going to die at a very young age so it's kind of amazing that all that I have is mild ADHD, ADD, and asthma. Well lets get on with the day I was born. I was born in California, Lancaster. My parents where going to abort me because of all the problems that I might have to go threw but they didn't. Why? You may be asking well i'll tell you. My mom and dad where siting in the waiting room to have my aborted and they started to cry. The nurse came out and said "Oh come on, It's just a blob." My dad got really mad then said "Come on blob where going home." So we did and that was just the beginning.
Foster Care
My parents where doing drugs and drinking alcohol. Someone I still don't know to this day tried to help by calling a foster care and get us taken away for my mom and dad so that's what happened. I was still a baby so I didn't get to be with my sisters Heaven and Cassandra or even with my brother Elisha. I don't remember much but what I do remember is them hitting me, locking me in my room without water or food for hours. They would also drag me by my arm and twist it. We had to go to foster care two times then when my parents got us back he moved us all up to Oregon.
Thanksgiving: A Day For Thanks... Right?
It was Thanksgiving day and it was suppose to be a happy and fun day with our family. Nope not in this family. Me and Heaven where sitting in a chair holding each other in fear and crying. My mom and dad where fighting about something dumb when all of the sudden my dad grabbed my mom by the neck and was going to chock her to death. My brother Elisha was yelling and screaming at him to stop because he knew what would happen if he didn't step in. My dad continued to try to kill my mom in front of their own kids till Elisha called the cops. The cops arrested my dad and he went to jail...AGAIN.
Something good
I was in 3rd grade at the time. I would sit on the swings every day because I didn't have any friends till one day two little girls walked up to me and asked if I wanted to play with them. Those two where my best friends Ailie and Carly. Where still all friends today and i'm very happy about that. They made my life better and still are making it better today.
Good bye mom...
I was nine years old. My mom was always sick since I was born so it wasn't that big of a shock till after it happened. I remember me, Heaven, Elisha, Cassandra, and my dad where in her hospital room saying good bye. Elisha and her where fighting for years and wouldn't talk till this day. He went up to the bed and said he was sorry about everything then we all went up to her and said bye. She couldn't talk very well but she managed to get the words out "I love you all". Then we all walked out. Everyone was crying but me. I just stood there in shock not doing anything, but as i'm writing this and remembering her cold blue eyes i'm cry. I love her and always will.
My dad
After my mom died I had to life with my dad, Heaven, and Cassandra. I don't mind living with my sisters but I hate my dad. Now you might be thinking "You don't hate him it's just a teen thing." No, it's not. Iv hated him my whole life and I wouldn't care if he died. He hates us and legally he isn't even suppose to be in the same house as us because of what he did to my mom. He's the reason Heaven cuts herself. He's the reason Heaven tried to kill herself overdosing with pills. He's the reason I want to run away. The last time he said I love you to me I was 7 years old. He has never been a real father to any of his kids.
The end so far
So this is where I am now. I'm lost. I don't know what to do. The only people keeping me alive are my brothers, sisters and of course Ailie and Carly. I have to thank these people for believing in me and staying with me my whole life. So Thanks! You guys have made my life enjoyable and bearable.