This is my life. When i was 18 years old, i met a girl in online. We both chat well, at the begining it was normal, we started to chat daily. And we became friends, we share everything, she was good to me all time, she was really a good person to me. She was living very far from me, She is one year older than me too.
I feel good to chat with her, everything was fine and normal. we both had a great time. i am her best friend and she is my best friend. I dont know when this happed to me i started to like her, the feeling has the no words to say but it i feel good. And finally i got prepared and waited for the right time to express my feeling. And that day arrived, and i told her sbout my feeling she was shocked and said she dont need anything, And for some day we dindt talk about my feelings, And one day she replaied me as " this can't be possible and we are not made for eachother". Then she left the chat, i dint know that day will be the last day to chat her with, i asked many sorry, she never reply anyone of my messages, she avoided me, but i cant able to forget her since she was my first lover. I still texted and called her many time but no responce from her, i feel like as alone, my mind is full of her thoughts, Inever thing anythingother than her.
Months passed still no reply from her , i feel like loosing everything in my life, i cant able to control my feeling, cried a lot for her but she dont know this, still months passed and one day there was a message from her, she took a long time to reply for me, i have opened the message and shocked, in that her message was that " stop texting me and i'am happily married".
Since she already said to me as her family was looking for a good boy for her marriage with him, i was shocked and went down, i asked many times that she was saying that real, but she never reply me, no one can understand how much i love her, there are no words to express my love, she is my everything, there is a no days in my life without seeing her photo and without writing her name on anything.
Then i feel like i am distubing her a lot and stoped to text her, then one day her memories filled my mind and and without my control i made a phone call to her, she answered my call and saked about my life and my family and everything at last i asked about her marriage she said "it had not happed still now, but my parents are looking for a good boy and i will get married soon, dont waste your life by thinking about me,you must forget me and you will find a better girl than me.
The words she said at last keeps repeting in my ears, then thought to leave her alone and not to disturb her anymore, but still i dont know how she said that i can find a better girl than her as she is my everything, and this i love it happens only once in a life, we can't go and search for a love, it has to be happen, we cant go and seek for love its not a true love, it has to be happen as the way when i saw her, and she tod me to forget her, how can i forget her? how can i forget my love? hove can i forget my heart? everything is for her. i may wait altleast in my next life i can try to impress her, i dont feel any sad, she i happy in her life, thats enough for me. nothing is equal in this world before her smile. i can give my life by seeing her smile, she is the beauty of everything.