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My weight is my biggest Nightmare


Hi again,

Well, let's talk about me growing up ! 

I was always and still overweight !! from my childhood, i was usually known as the biggest girl in my class or my group, that hurt a lot inside even if I try hard to show others that i like myself being like that, and it's not a problem for me !! 

I try hard enough to believe it !! but when am out for shopping or after done shopping, i feel so disappointed, and my size get bigger in my eyes !! 

I know that some of you will say that i can changer that and i need to have more WILL and self-confidence, but believe me I tried a lot by i couldn't keep going on diet, once am sad or angry i start eating !! not much but a lot of calories in small meals !! 

i am 24 years old, my weight is 30 or even 50 kilos over my suitable weight !!

once i tried a diet and i lost 9 kilos in 6 months, i was so happy because i felt better, but when we had visitors i start eating with them forgotten the diet, and i add more and more pounds !!

i can't go visit a dietitian because i can't handle the cost, i tried just to manage my own meals.

Due to this Problem of weight, i got attached to my laptop, i feel comfortable setting behind the screen and chatting. and every time a friend ask to meet me i shut the whole relationship down !!

I don't know if am asking for advice of am just sharing my deep feelings with you guys , but i really needed to share this with someone who doesn't know me in real life.

Just to notice, am not ugly Thanks TO Allah, i have my charm AlHamdu Lillah .

Thanks for reading this ...