Myself confusion. I have many unknown & different sides.

Do i know who i am..? Do i know who to trust..? Do i know where is my heart..? Or Do i know where is my life..? I think i am a heartbroke , i think i am a romance lover , i think i am a dancer , i think i am a singer , i think i am smart , i think i like everyone , i think i am kind , i think i am cruel , i think i have many sides but i also think they worth nothing.

Its me. Myself confusion. Will you be able to understand me?? Will i myself be able to understand that why i am like this?? I have many questions that may bore you , that may increase your interest to know my story , that may irritate you , that may state you my situation and thoughts and conditions , that may also tell you or will make you think to know about my curiosity and my mental state.

Sometimes i feel , i think i am a different item in this world who think all those wild things which would have never been imagined by any one , sometimes i feel i am the only one who can have this quality and start behaving like celebs but , do these really worth anything in my life?? Will it be really going to help me to recognise my problems??

I love to write. I wrote for myself means i love myself. When i'm not in the mood of writing i force myself to write , means i force myself to love myself..?? Isn't it confusing? No its strange or may be its like a not worthing talk but then also its all about a worth talk.

Again its me when my different opinions comes. Its me , when the world is busy i am free and when the world is free then also i am free..? Actually i love watching stories and i love listening and i love writing also and , and i love speaking also , i love reading as well. I don't know how to exclaim but my condition ,i feel ,is so irritating or foolish.

Am i a foolish? If exclaiming your confusion and feelings is someting like foolish then yes i am a foolish person. I always talk to myself and decide that i will do this or that...but again its like 'the same ground and the same horses'. I make myself confused and then ask questions to my sisters.. Ahhh now here comes my sisters , when they talk i feel like only they are there in this world who can solve my every problems and also like accept them and me no one in this world have heart. Is it truee..? No,i think its all about my surrounding. I feel like running from there far away to my world of dreams...

Now my dream world comes. In this world there are a lot many things like of relatings to life beauty , silence , unity , affection , magic , my love , and my biggest dream of living in a foreign country... I think its so great...well leave about dreams. Because whenever I try to push my self towards hard work my confidence increases but my lazyness pull me down again.

But actually again my confusion overcomes Mee. My side of caring for everyone , not fighting with anyone , helping someone , and creating a beautiful environment is the kind ones and my side of thinking negative about someone , being showing off myself , showing that I can do the things , and judging everyone is the cruel ones and my side of leaving in peace , having no troubles will always remain a dream or a wish of my life just because of those confusions who makes my life a deadline....