She: Hey, you are again late from work.
He: yes, being busy these days. Why are you up so late, not sleepy?
She: I bit may be. What do you mean by that text? Explain!
He: umm, what do you expect from this?
She: don't play with words! Answer what I asked for, why you start ignoring me all of a sudden? Why you wanna create such a distance?
He: umm, listen to be very frank, I am not ready for any kind of relationship as of now or may be, I won't be able to in future too.
She: (silence, lots of thoughts, but all are vain, so she remain silent)
He: I never want to hurt you, but I start feeling that this all is moving in direction of relationship so I start maintaining distance.
She:(Again silent)
He: say something, I said this much, don't you have anything to say? I backed off because you turned out be a addiction.
She:(in her thoughts)
I am silent because I want to pray,
A great life for you on your way,
I can't ask you to stay,
and I am not brave enough to see, walk you away...
He: are you there? Slept?
She: hmm, no. I think you are right. Even I am not ready for any kind of relationship, I told you this before too, so it's fine.
He: hmm, I don't want to hurt you ever but there's the thing, I am busy and so you are and for a relationship to work on one needs to meet up regularly which is difficult in our case, you are understanding right?
She: yes. I totally understand, its fine.
Silence between the two for few minutes, so much to say but whatever they say mean nothing...
He(breaks the silence): go sleep its late.
She: okay (she knows that's the last time she's hearing his voice, still she said okay, no she's not scared, she's brave enough to let him go, brave enough to not let him know)
He: good night, sleep well
She: I had great time with you, Night, Take care.
The call disconnects, its 2 am in the morning, everything was at peace, except the heart and the heart and the heart beat, that's when everything start rewinding, first time meet ups, first time talks, silly jokes, stupid fights, endless talks, everything starts revolving, yes there were tears, few of them, she was hurt like always, once again she try to make herself calm, then she realise she still need to tell him how she actually feels, she texted him-
Hey,
I am not sending this text for any false intention, I am not forcing you to stay and even I am not sure about if I want to stay, I wanna say, you know I fear relationship and at first we start talking I was quite clear with everything that I'll be your friend only, but don't know how it turned out to be this, here is the thing I was comfortable with you may be that's why I think of something which exactly doesn't mean that thing, once you ask me, Am I a type of girl who wait for guy to express first or other way round! Here's the answer to this -I Love you...
Standing at the end from where it begins....
"No hard feelings"