This is a story of a girl who was never understood by anyone……….if you consider yourself as a friend, then only you can understand what this story conveys.
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A girl named Niharika was studying in my class since last seven years. Now we are in tenth standard. Her relations with the people were not very good. She never used to talk with anyone, and the most important thing she never used to smile in school, as per my observation. She was a loner.
She had only two friends Ella and Natasha. Except them she never used to talk with anyone, but again the same problem she never used to smile.
I was like daily noticing her and thought “What the hell is her problem??”
She was a loner but was very intelligent and was very good at sports and was very beautiful, was very pretty. But she never used to interact with others.
One day in our school, our Athletics Sir made six teams, each group with four members. And my team members were NIHARIKA, Ella, and Eeshika. I guess our team was the strongest among the five other teams. And somewhere it’s because of Niharika, as she was very good in sports especially in Athletics. After one month there will be our Athletics selection for National Athletics Championship. So Sir instructed all the six teams to begin their practices and after one month from each team only two members will be selected. We decided when to begin our practice and it was decided that from tomorrow 5:00 a.m. onwards we will start practicing. As we were studying in Boarding School and it was vacation going on, but as we were the participants for the Athletics Championship, we had to practice even in the vacations.
It was 5 o’ clock, Ella and Eeshika got very late but Niharika was present there, even before me. Niharika was very seriously practicing; I was observing her for last ten to twenty minutes. She first started with her warm up, after that she did jogging and some running practice. She was very tired and she just fell down, there was grass so nothing was to worry. I went there gave her water and took her to the stands. When she opened her eyes and saw me, she said me, “Sorry! It was my mistake”, it was very weird.
We all continued our practice and when we were done with our practice, we thought of gathering in my room and be there for the one month, all four together so in the meantime we can also discuss our strategies and go for the practice together. First Niharika was hesitating but Ella insisted her, so she was ready to be a part of our idea. When it was around 1:45 a.m. I got up to drink water but I felt that there was someone in the balcony so went there to check and it was Niharika who was crying over there and was saying something to herself, “What was my mistake? I don’t deserve to be happy. I can never keep the people happy around me. I hate myself!” I thought of giving her a present, a present of happiness and I wanted to present her a smile, so that she would never cry and always keep on smiling. I kept my hand on her shoulder and expressed my understanding for her. I told her, “What you are thinking is not right. Everyone deserves to be happy. You are a very special person, and if you think people use you, then think as if you are privileged to have all people asking you for your help and you must believe in yourself and come what may I’m there for you. So please don’t worry!!”
I hugged her and from that moment onwards we became Best Friends. From there whatever the work, we did together. It was like a beginning of her new life. Now she used to smile all the time.
(One month later)
Today is our Athletics selection and we are very well prepared. The other teams were also prepared. Now, the first race is of Niharika. I am confident that she will get selected. Then Ella, Eeshika and finally me. ‘ON YOUR MARKS, GET SET GO!!!’ and I had a really good head-start and I was leading the race but then suddenly I got a strain in my ankle and I was literally crying because of the pain, not the pain I’m suffering from strain but the pain of not being selected and because of that I couldn’t go for the Athletics Championship. Niharika got selected, as it was obvious. But she rejected the opportunity just because I was not selected. I know that it would have been difficult for her to reject such a great opportunity. I was feeling so bad and also I wanted to go and slap Niharika for what she did, because she is very good at sports and she would have never liked to reject such an opportunity.
(End of Vacations)
We are back in the regular school life. And all the teachers are quickly completing their syllabus and our preliminary exams are also approaching. All the students are studying day and night to secure good marks.
(End of Exams)
OPEN PARENTS MEET- All parents came to see the results of their children. Even my parents were present but I could see only Niharika’s mom and when I asked her, “Where’s your dad?” but she just ignored me. Then I thought he would be busy that’s the reason he couldn’t come.
One day a guy came in my class and gave me a chit and something was written on that, “Your best friend is a traitor, She is cheating you”- ‘Your Well-Wisher’ I didn’t believe this I thought of going and talk to her about all this, but then she would think that I don’t trust her. So I just removed that from my mind. But all the time, it just came and stroked my mind that I should ask her or just I wanted to know about that. Finally, I decided to spy her, I did not want to do all this, but I have to do this!
I started spying her; I spied her for almost one week. But there was everything alright. But again there was a chit on my desk with something written, “You are doing a big mistake, I wanted to show you something. Meet me at the Fire Exit”
I went there but there was no one so I went inside the fire exit and waited for five minutes. Then I heard some sound, I thought someone was coming, so went I behind the door and I was just shocked to see that it was Niharika along with a boy and they were talking about me that how to impress me? So that when I’m impressed I would give my all the powers as I’m was the president of the school. It wouldn’t have matter to me, but my best friend Niharika was cheating me and that also for an idiot boy. And what Niharika said to him was, “You don’t worry, she is very easily impressed and I’ll convince her, but I need something for doing all this!” I went there and slapped her very badly. I went back to my room. After that what happened between the two of them I don’t know.
After all this I hated her. And now she was the one whom I hated the most. And I decided not to see her face again and she also never came in front of me and talked to me after all that.
(Three years later)
I have completed my 12th class and was approaching towards my higher studies in Australia.
When I was busy packing my bags, as I had my flight for Australia tomorrow, a parcel came at my door. The address was unknown but it was for me, so I opened it, and I found a diary. I was thinking about who sent me this parcel. I opened the diary and on the first page it was written, “To my best friend” and there was also my photograph on the next page. I understood that the one who has sent me this parcel knows me very well. I started reading the diary------------
‘Sorry!! I’m really very sorry for what I did!
I know you might have understood now that who sent you this parcel.
Yes! You are right, I’m Niharika.
Please, just once read my diary and I know you hate me, I’m not saying that you are wrong. I deserve this. I have cheated you! But please just read my diary once.
You remember how we became friends, in the balcony when I was crying, you told me that I’m a special person, I deserve to be happy, and I cried on your shoulder, you were the one whom I thought that you understand me, but while sharing our secrets, the main thing I didn’t told you was that; in my family, everyone except my mom believed that I’m a burden and I was considered as their bad luck. But mom she spent a lot on me to see me successful so she sent me in a boarding school, to stay away from all the distractions in our family.
I never used to talk with anyone. And the reason why I was crying was; all this how my mom sent me here and to see me successful she spent a lot on me. My father never used to call me his child. He hated me. And that’s why he didn’t come on my result day. Only my mom was present on my result.
And two weeks before this, my mom passed away and my heart break into pieces, because she was the only one for whom I lived as she wanted to see me successful. But after that I was all alone in this world there was no one to support me. I lost all my family members and from that moment I started believing that I’m a bad luck for everyone and after that I never smiled.
Then you met me, I felt that I’ve got someone for whom I can live my life. And I promised myself that I will never lose you. And be with you forever.
One day, I heard a boy speaking about you that, “I want the president post at any cost” I went to him and asked him about what all rubbish was he talking about you. First, he didn’t told me anything but then I made him realized that I’m on his side by writing you the chit (from your well-wisher) so that you will hate me and also you’ll know about his plans so I purposely planned all this. But you only know the half truth, after that when you went, he realized that I’m on his side and he told me that, “I have one brilliant plan. We can remove her from the post .You were her weakness, now she is very weak. You have to make banners and write against her that ‘She is a loser, with my help (Niharika) she became the president of the school. She doesn’t deserve to be the president. Elections need to be held again’ and because of the pressure of students by hearing all this, principal need to declared elections open again. But you don’t have to stand up in the elections and when she will come to know that all this was your plan then she would not bear and will leave her post”
I was not ready to do this, but then he started blackmailing me that if I don’t do all this, then, he’d play a really bad game against you and he was just looking for that chance. I slapped him and was going to complain. But then I thought about you if he does anything then it is possible that your future and our studying will get affected so by the end that year I was keeping all the distractions away from you. And I didn’t tell you this because then you will unnecessarily take tension and get distracted so I thought of doing all this. I thought of saving your future by sacrificing our friendship.
You must be wondering that why I’m telling you all this now. It was important for you to know all this because I can’t leave that hatred feeling for me in your heart when I’m leaving this world forever. Please forgive me, it was my mistake, I don’t know what attracted you to be my friend by but can I do I was a bad luck for everyone. First, my family members, my mom and now you.
I know you won’t forgive me. First, there was my mom for whom I live then when she passed away I met you and you were the only support in my life. But after reading all this I don’t think you will forgive me so now I don’t have anyone for whom I can live and since all the problems in my life I can’t believe myself, I can’t trust myself and now there no reason for me to live.
I’m really very sorry, please forgive me! Please forgive me.
I don’t deserve it but, please………………
And please don’t blame yourself for all this it was my mistake. And my last wish is please be happy and never ever do anything like me. You are meant to achieve success in your life, please for me. Be happy!
I’M SORRY
‘WHAT WAS MY MISTAKE? I DON’T DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. I CAN NEVER KEEP THE PEOPLE AROUND ME HAPPY. I HATE MYSELF!!’
THIS WAS A REAL-LIFE STORY OF A GIRL WHOM I HATED….., WHO WAS MY BIGGEST ENEMY, BUT NOW I DON’T HAVE ANY REASON TO HATE HER……….BUT I’M REGRETTING FOR WHAT I DID!!!
BECAUSE SOMEWHERE SHE IS NOT IN THIS WORLD BECAUSE OF ME. SHE LEFT THIS WORLD BECAUSE OF ME. NOW I DON’T HAVE ANY REASON TO HATE HER AND I’M REGRETTING BECAUSE I DIDN’T TRUSTED HER. SHE DID ALL THIS FOR ME AND I WAS NOT ABLE TO DO ANYTHING FOR HER. FROM THE ATHLETICS RACE TILL NOW WHEN SHE IS NOT THERE SHE SACRIFICED EVERYTHING TO SEE ME HAPPY. BUT NOW I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF.
I WILL SURELY FULFILL YOUR WISH.
I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF AND NOW YOU SCARIFICED YOUR LIFE FOR ME BUT NOW ITS MY TIME TO FULFILL YOUR WISH, ITS MY TIME TO DO SOMETHING FOR YOU, THOUGH YOU ARE NOT HERE BUT I KNOW YOU WERE THERE FOR ME………….ALWAYS!!