I don't believe there's anything else that can possibly make you feel worthy about your life than the fact that you are happy.
No matter how petty an act you perform, even if an orange candy brings forth a curve on your face, so be it. Go pride over all those trivial little achievements that gave you bubbly moments of joy and pushed you a little more ahead of the place you occupied before. Pride over how laboriously you worked up against all odds only to embrace your target.
Most of all, every bit of your story matters. You are that perfectly shaped clay that your experiences moulded.
So do not ever forget that headache you suffered when you were caught up late till 12:00 for that project you wanted an A on or that moment you broke your watch that had you frowning over how incomplete your wrist felt post that.
Every second becomes slow when the times are hard and that same second becomes a lot faster when you're seizing your good times.
What an amazing level of bravery is extrapolated every night when you sleep with the perplexed thought of how your tomorrow is going to be. And the following morning either reminds you of how broken you were the day before or it dictates to you the terms of how you'll spend the afternoon with your lover. And I am too sure you must have had those nights and those mornings and it's okay if it makes you feel like a pest at times because, believe me, being a pest exposes you to some sense of reality.
It is okay if you cry and people call you sensitive, no worries! You are not just crying, you are also showing off how able are you at emanating emotions. If they say your sense of humour sucks, no worries! Do not consider yourself under the obligation to make others laugh their asses off. You are not a professional comedian, you are just highlighting what's already so bright in our lives . Believe me, there's still going to be someone who will hug you tight but only after he finishes laughing.
It is okay if you are afraid or low on confidence. What else will you look forward to if you're pitch perfect at everything?
So, believe me, sweetheart, no worries if there's no best friend or a lover. You can always look forward to that eye candy from the gymnasium or that girl you thought was intellectually compatible with you.
And for pushing ourselves a little more, we exchange a little something of us with the world since this life is a trade where we've got to exchange some intangible part of us, in order to land at some level of tangibility. You've got to sacrifice your 11 PM sleep for the 11AM presentation the other day. You cannot just settle for an approval when you have a shot at the applaud. If you know what I mean.
And there's only just one thing that will keep you moving, the reassurance that today you are more adamant than you were yesterday. Believe me, that is the only harbinger of hope. And if you are under the impression that hope is a cruel thing that sets you working for nothing, you are wrong. "Hope is a good thing and a good thing never dies" Hope is probably the only thing that brings forth the life in you. If it didn't work out, it's just wrong time of the year. But don't drag yourself to a point where it numbs you. Cry your heart out, no worries! Believe in the fact that you possess the capability to bring about a change. Even the ant leaves an impression on the sand and if you let yourself be ignorant to such subtleties of life, how will you learn?
How would you have grasped the language of eyes, had you not seen them in those of your dog?
How would you have known the real meaning of patience, had you not known that tree that grows a little more everyday in your backyard, regardless everything?
How could you have known that the impurest of the things could have the greatest of value to others, had you not known the Ganges?
"Nature serves as a great teacher" Indeed.
So, don't give up that easily, I swear you deserve that cottage that overlooks the mountains , the house of your dreams. I swear you deserve that girl or that guy you just pushed out of your league. Believe me, for the first step, an exchange of smiles will do.
Give your life a meaning even if it's as meaningless as the joker is to a deck of cards. You have it in you.
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