Launchorasince 2014
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Of Seconds and Firsts

When I meet you, when I finally do

Know that I have been waiting for you

I will write this first poem ever

So you will know you've always been in my nightly prayer


And with the prayers that my heart will utter

I will be waiting for you even if it takes forever

You see? I pray for unlimited second chances

In my heart and mind it dances


I want a second chance on my last first kiss

that will take me down an unknown abyss

I want my second chance on getting to know somebody

On things so deep, even on its triviality


I want my second chance in planning for our future

with a person who sees me with eyes so sure

I  want my second chance in showing i love deeply

and finally be vulnerable and sweet and silly


I want my second chance in love

To finally swim like a dolphin, fly like a dove

in the ocean of uncertainties

and skies of opportunities


But when I meet you I wanna enjoy our leadoff

From travelling to a place where we know nothing

To just staying at home watching the cheesiest movies

Or cuddling days on end in our cute onesies


I want my first plane ride to be with you

'Cause I hate heights, I really do

I would love your arm to be draped protectively over my shoulders

'Cause you'd know my anxiety comes in rolling boulders


So while It's still early, yes, I have that scary hole of anxiety

So I pray for you to know the bottomless pit that is me

My thoughts run haywire and believe me it does wildly

I want you to know that so you could understand me really


I hope you like music like I do

My moods will show in what i'm listening to

I hope you like me being so grumpy at you

Just know that in the end i will stick it with you


I won't promise you fairy tale princess or the smoothest sails

I know one day the butterflies and sunshine will just leave trails

Like this poetry, our love will be in constant disarray

But I hope you know I am here, so please don't you push me away.


The firsts I am earnestly praying for to be mine

I believe will be given to me in God's perfect time

Wherever you are, I am preparing for you

So our firsts will lead to our "I do"


But for now I have to be by myself and experience the "firsts" of my own

By the time we meet I would've grown

Into somebody you would be proud to say "yours"

So let us let life, for now, take its course.