Last year, I was doing completely fine. I may have fell on the ground few times but I definitely stood up every time. I may have fell on the ocean for how many times but I got a vest on back then. The other month, I keep on falling to holes filled with spikes. But these days, I am endlessly falling on a dark pit with nothing to grab to survive. I keep on falling to an ocean full of monsters, with no vest on, with no rescue boats to call for help, with nothing else but me...
I don't know what happened. I don't know when I started failing. I don't know how to get up.
Perhaps, this mess started after I met new people. Some made me feel less, the others I unintentionally got attached to.
Should I cut them off?
Are they thorns? Did they wound me?
Should I remove them off my life?
Are they stains-- too dirty and difficult to wash off that they made my brightness fade away?
Should I burn down the bridges I built?
Are they too heavy to include in my growth?
Should I distance myself away from all these people? Will that make me find my way back to my old self? Will that make me happy?
Should I? :((