A year ago, on this very same day,
I mustered all my courage to send him a message, " Happy Valentines " , I said.
Like a little girl waiting for a magic to happen, I closed my eyes tightly, after a second or two I opened it and checked the phone right away, but there was nothing. It's okay , I never expected him to do so, I let out a Loud sigh ,checked my phone again and this time I got reaLLy excited upon seeing his name on the notification bar, my hands were shaking, my knees were trembling,
"Thank you", he said, " who are you " , another message arrived.
" It's me , Deee 😊 " I said.
" Oh it's you, how are you? ", he replied.
" I'm great! How 'bout you ? " I said.
" no, I mean , you're LOVELIFE " , he said.
I giggled so much like a teenage girl..
Is he interested??
Why did he has to asked that question ??
Why did he?
Those questions still taunt me,
I never knew how he really felt,
I always wished I knew,
so I could at least justify this feeling so new.
If you're going to ask what happened next; nothing, yeah, nothing extraordinary we just ended up saying our goodbyes to each other..
And today, on this Valentines day,
" I really wish I could text you and greet you,
to let you know that you are loved and you will always be.
But the day almost ended,
I don't even got loaded,
I'm sending you my Love instead,
Through this message that will reach you never. I LOVE YOU forever and ever. "
I don't have enough courage anymore.