Most of you experinced the chill that vibrates your body in midniht embrace of the dark. That relentless tought was always living in somewhere in your head. Never leaves never dissappears. And that very one night some man in somewhere lit up his cigarette in the embrace of dark. Everything was blur but night was clear. In any point of your life this tought and dark will occur but not the others. now i am sitting in somewhere you, especially not any others would know. holding a cup of tea and other a half way ashed cigarette. İ believed no not believed i trusted that we can all be rock stars, super athletes, billion dollared ceo's even the hit man in a super tech suit taking down a whole swat team. It never happened and it won't besides life, mother nature or god (which ever you think it is) gave you the wrong things in wrong times and never really listened what you say and prayed to be. it is an ignorent bitch i knoe just not it abandoned me but it ignores me neither. I believed we were destined to accomplish the great but not somewhere ot of there somebody is a part of it but the others like me are destined to be the minor part of the machine that works on that way
really? Because once i wanted to be the gratest i thought no winds or waterfalls that could stall me. Then? asked the mother nature how hard you want this ? asked if i am qualified. Do you want to know what bothers me pal? even mother nature works and acts like a company. And call it natural selection. Why do i have to die while the others are living why didnt i selected to be the best? why i am not a part of it?
these questions are rushing in my head every second every hour like a clock that tics in a hollow space.