Everyone’s been telling you to open up because they will always be there to listen. Some may get mad at you because they thought you don’t trust them or appreciate their efforts or sometimes they blame you for your life that’s falling apart. The truth is it’s actually really hard to open up and tell them how you really feel. You get so overwhelmed with all your emotions that you ended up not knowing where to start. But when you finally decided to face them and say everything you want to say, you blank out. Everything you rehearsed in your head are gone and you end up speechless.
You thought messaging them might be a good idea so you tried reaching out to them. Now you have everything typed out and the last thing you have to do is to send it. Fear started to fill your mind and you start having second thoughts whether to send it or not. You start doubting yourself because you thought you might just be overthinking or you’re just being too sensitive. It was another fail so you keep it all to yourself even how much of a burden it is and it’s driving you insane.
The next time you judge us please consider how hard it is actually for us to share something very personal. And no it’s not that we don’t trust you or take you for granted, we just needed some time or maybe figure things out ourselves first.
To everyone suffering out there you are not alone!