The cry of the rain breaks the silent night. She was listening to its rythm without fail. It was the only time she could let the moment carry all the thoughts inside her head. She wants them to continuously pour just like the rain and be gone.
Where all the wonders she thought would happen didn't come true. Like skycrapers flew up to the sky, helpless from the wind.
She have mediums, who are the faces of her scars, undying. Let alone the memories of haunting, unforgotten.
If there is a tonic to create blindness and forbid unwanted thoughts by your own then she would gladly drink without hesitations.
Lost in time, somehow she manage to survive or escape the reality of pain. Time permits for her to feel the gift of life and happiness again. However even time couldn't fix the problem.
She falls in love or could learn to love someone. Though she may give her all but the strings that binds her will always pull her two steps back from everything.
Yes, it is possible that in no time she will heal. But it takes someone to become a friend or a lover. When her conscious self couldn't give trust whether her heart is in love, there were no way the person will be able to hold her whole being.
Time did give its all to help her but time also teach her lesson not to. If everytime she tried it brings the same ending.
However, it wasn't a sad story to tell. She was able to complete goals that are close to becoming someone she wants to, if the future permits. Even things of happiness are limited she still finds reason not to give up. She had overcome one stage; giving up her life.
She was a fragile girl that evolve to someone strong. No longer weak and not scared to fall anytime. Though she may cry at times but she always understood the every drop of her tears.
If things aren't meant then she will not force herself. There are only few that she can't ignore. Things that no matter how you see and understand it in different perspective it will always lead to one conclusion.
Making herself insecure, small, unworthy and jealous. The sole reason this happenning because she wasn't born stupid to begin with. In which whoever feeds her lies will only have two result, making her believe it halfhearted or saying a lie that she believes the whole thing.
The problem is she couldn't forget the picture she already saw. It will remain as a basis of every persons action around her.
Little lie is always a lie, if its little then it will become big when being feed.