Read Me.

I am once a happy girl. I'm an outgoing person and I am labeled as "Ms. Sunshine" by many people. I can make you smile or laugh in 3 seconds flat. I am outgoing and fearless. But even though I am like that, I still have that walls around my heart which can't be easily be broken.

Until one day I met Mr. Mysterious. He's... well, an outcast. He doesn't have that so called friends as what he say. He said that he's better off without them and that he's fine by himself. But I know that deep inside him, he knew how much he loved having a friend whom he can share his thoughts and feelings with. So that's why, being Ms. Sunshine, I made him my friend and soon enough, we became one.

....

But why is it that everytime i look at him, my heart beats so fast? Why is it that everytime I'm with him it's like the time stands still? why is it that everytime i am not with him it feels empty? and right through there i know the answer. i know that i am falling in love.

...

we were sitting on a bench at our school yard. the sky is in it's red-orange state but were still sitting here as we watch the sun set. i can still remember the exact words I said. "I like you.". He did not move at that moment, it's like he froze and can't even utter a single word. but afterwards he cleared his throat and grabbed my hands.

"I don't know how to say this, but I like you too, even before you spoke to me and made me your friend. I don't know how to say this to you because I was so scared and I am afraid to be rejected. I'm afraid that if I'll confess to you, you'll go away. But... can you be mine?"

I smiled. "Yes, of course I'm yours."

...

We were in his bed, half asleep. His bed smelled like him, it smells so manly. Oh, how I love to smell him all day. The sound of the ticking clock and our synchronized heartbeats can only be heard as we both are facing the ceiling when suddenly he faced me and held my chin. "You're so gorgeous. Are you mine? It's too good to be true."

I laughed. "Of course I am, silly."

He kissed my forehead down to my chin. He cupped my chin and gave me a soft, gentle peck on the lips. We kissed again until our kisses became passionate until we found ourselves naked under his sheets.

...

I can still remember the exact words he said years ago.

"Let's end this."
"But..why? Don't you love me?"
"I love you, it's just that my family doesn't like you. I'm sorry." then he turned his back and walked away.
I can feel my heart tearing apart as he is walking away. All of our memories flashed back in my head.

So much for being Ms. Sunshine.
The happy me is now gone.

And now, Ms. Lonely was born.

...

All of my friends turned their back on me. They knew what happened between me and him... the boy I made love with. They're disgusted in me and doesn't even want to talk to me. They drive me away. Now I understand why he doesn't want to have friends.

They only betray you when you made the wrong decision or make mistakes.

That thought reminded me of him. He used to be that kind of person. But  I am that kind of person now. Has he changed? Or.. is he still like this? I wonder.

But I'm over him now.

Have I?

...

As I was walking down the street, I heard a group of boys laughing so loud that they can be heard throughout our town. Just kidding.
I looked at the group of boys across the street when suddenly I saw him..

Mr. Mysterious.

Oh, I see. He's not mysterious anymore..

In fact, he can be called as Mr. Sunshine now.

I suddenly felt a sting in my heart.

"He's better off without me. But here I am, still hurting without him."

...

Throughout the years I built a wall that no one could break. I became cold hearted. But its better this way so no one could enter. But I didn't realize that no matter how strong your wall is, someone can still break it even in just one snap.

I was walking down the street when heard a group of boys again. And I know that he was there. So I cluched my book in my chest tightly as I pass by. I felt relieved when they didn't notice when suddenly a stranger grabbed my hand.

"This is for you, Miss."

I opened the letter.

To: Ms. Sunshine

Can we meet at the boulevard? I want to watch the sunset with you.. I mean, I have something to tell you. @5:30 pm. See you there! :)

-Mr. M
...
I arrived there at exactly 5:30. I saw him sitting at one of the benches there while facing the sea. I examined his face carefully. His eye color became more brown because of the color the setting sun. His eyes is a bit longer than the usual hair cut he has.. well.. I don't think I know this boy anymore. I think he changed everything in him. From Mr. Mysterious to Mr. Sunshine and me.. from Ms. Sunshine to Ms. Lonely.

The sky is getting more orange in color and the wind is kinda breezy. I love the aura of this place. Too bad this place is just newly built. Maybe this is the place where we will always hangout.

He looked around and found me hiding at one of the posts in there.
"Hey! I waited 2 hours for you." then he offered the space in the bench he was sitting. I sat and he gave me snacks and drinks he bought earlier.

We were just sitting there, watching the sun set, quitely while eating and drinking. Usually I'm the one who will talk and talk and talk but.. I'm Ms. Lonely.

I was having random thoughts when he suddenly opened up.

"Do you know how hard it is to be without you?" I stopped chewing and looked at him. He put the drinks he had in his hands at the side.

"Every time I smile I remember you, because you're the one who taught me how to smile. You're the only one who can truly make me happy.. but now you're gone and I totally blame myself for driving you away." He wiped his tears. "You're the only person I know who has the sweetest smile ever. How badly I want to see you smile again. I'm sorry for making you cry, darling." He caressed my hands and looked at them. I didn't realize how much longing I felt for him not until this moment when I'm with him, facing his face. I carresed his cheek and observed his face carefully. He's gotten a lot more handsome than before, he still have those pimple marks but I still love his flaws, no matter how ugly or bad it is, because for me it seems so lovely. I kissed his cheeks and I didn't realize that a tear fell off my eyes.

"To be honest, I tried dating other girls, but every time they act sweet, they keep reminding me of you, so eventually I stopped. I mean, it's not hard to like them, but you..." he paused and and looked at my eyes. "You're so hard to forget. Damn, you're making me crazy. Every time I remember the moment when we made love---" I cut him off. "Stop it."
I said while covering my face.
"I'm sorry darling, it's just that your body is so wonderful that I can't help to crave for it." Then he winked at me.
And it made me turned beet red. "I said stop it!"
"Okay! okay." Then we laughed.

Oh, how I loved to be with him.

"I tried being with other girls. But I don't know, it doesn't feel right. And it's like we don't fit each other."

"It's because you're carrying the key to my heart all along." I said. "Even if you left me, you didn't left the key to my heart. And only you can have it." I smiled. And he smiled too.

Silence.

"I'm sorry I said those words. My mother told me to do so... I want to fight for us, but she said that she will cut your scholarship and I don't want that to happen darling. I don't want to watch you suffer because of me." He took a deep breath before speaking again. "So I agreed to her condition. All I can do is watch you from afar,  and it breaks my heart. I wanted to hug you and tell you the truth, but my mom has connections." He paused again, wiping his tears. "I promised myself that if I'll get a good job in the future, I will immediately take you and ask for your hand. I'm still a part time working student right now, but whenever my savings are enough to support you and for our future family..." he grabbed my hand and kissed it. "I will immediately marry you."

It is getting really dark. I can't utter a single word at that time so I just looked up the night sky. I can feel my heart tightening and tears are walling up my eyes. Alas! All these years, I can finally say that I'm truly happy for him...for us.
I smiled before I said, "I will marry you and I will wait for the right time, in God's will."

We hugged each other and looked at each other's eyes, while fireworks blasted into the night sky.

...

"Darling! What's taking you so long? Our kids are waiting!"

"Coming hon!"

Through the years I realized that the quote "True love waits" is really a legit qoute. If it weren't for our sacrifice maybe we would'nt end up each other.

I smiled as I closed the laptop.

"Darling. If you will not get out in our room we will make our third baby."

My eyes widened. "Pervert!" I yelled as I clipped my hair. The jerk just laughed and keep teasing me. As soon as I opened the door I immediately punched his arm.

"Aww! That hurts!"
We laughed.
"I love you wife."
I smiled.
"I love you too hubby." then I kisse his cheek.
He turned beet red. I immediately ran away while laughing.
"Hey! No fair!"
He immediately catched me and tickled me. Our two kids laughed at us while watchings us.
"Stop it please."
"Okay." then he kissed my cheek.

I looked around our house.
A loving husband. My lovely kids. Our cheerful dog. What can I wish for?

"I hope that someone will write our story hun. I will immediately buy it."

I smiled.

"No need hun. I wrote our story the day we first met in my diary."

"Woah! Why didn't you tell me? I will surely read that one."

He kissed my forehead.

That's our story.

Thanks for reading.

-D.I.M

p.s. this is only fictional guys! 😂