Before, I have never been into hate like this. I never curse anyone because I can't think of anything harm for them. Living in this unfair world, I never envy someone with lots of possessions. Those individuals with cunning, beauty, power and everything— I never care about them. I just want to live peacefully and happily but as time runs like the speed of light, I learnt the things I didn't know.
I learnt to envy. A year later, I am thinking about how to become like them. Oh, scratch that, I am thinking how to pass through them. I want my things better than them. I want to surpass them. Too bad, frustrations kill me. I did everything but I never become like them. I was so depressed. I was so desperate. I am a fool!
For the meantime, I learnt a lesson. You can't be someone you wanted to but you can be better than the person you really are. Ralph Waldo Emerson is right, 'Imitation is suicide.' I killed my own ideas and aspiration just to imitate someone I am not but just as I learnt my lesson, I tried to revive my own beliefs. I regret that I throw everything before. As time goes by, I started to feel happy again because I regain it earlier myself before I get tired of grasping my dreams.
I may not the best-selling writer, a well-known artist nor the best doctor at this moment but I am glad, I became a good teacher. I teach students by heart, not by the book. I want to teach them about the lesson I learn. It is to abolish the feeling of being someone they don't want. Now, I am really happy. This is how I find my real happiness.
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