That scarlet liquid dripped along the blade, a thread of joy ran through my body spreading from my inner to every part of my body taking me almost to achieve happiness, I nail down again the dagger through the wound, the pleasure I feel is incomparable to anything I’ve ever experienced. This is the third attempt, this time I would accomplish it, no matter the pain, I will have what I wanted and I will be completely happy to do it.
Blood flowed with perfect timing; the drip was counting what was needed to achieve my mission, to reach that with which I dreamed for so many nights, that will me make suffer but I will be completely happy. I slide the sharp part of the blade extending the wound, spilling more blood, time passed slowly, filling me with pleasure as the wound is pouring more and more blood, my face must have a smile, I know, I can feel it, I feel the thread of joy running through my body, intensify, leaving a very pleasant feeling, that sensation I been seeking for so long, my body began to feel heavy, but the feeling of happiness does not vanish, it is my time.
My eyelids weighed, did they also wanted this so much like me? Does my body need this? But I just knew that I needed it, and my thoughts were not coupled with my mind anymore, how to doubt that my body needs this? I know that my body needs this; it's what I have want all my life. Spots travel before my eyes, letting me know that the end is near, making me want it quick and satisfying.
This time no one can stop it, twenty minutes after the spots appear, my eyes close slowly, leaving me alone with my mind and with the great pleasure of being close to achieving what I want, I suddenly feel like the thread of life is pulled by the perfect happiness that fills me, I don’t feel like I am part of my body anymore but as something different to far away, I realize that this is what I wanted, I disappear from this world, I've gone for ever and ever, extreme happiness completely flooded me, is the end.