Sometimes,the only thing you stay away from the most,is "yourself".
Unware , unnoticed you forget to remember in all the hustle, that there is a you, that's waiting to get your time, waiting for you to listen.How many times have you been harsh on yourself,saying hurtful things you wouldn't say to someone else.Unware of the fact that in all of that, unconsciously you have hurted yourself in a way that you can't imagine.
Try to recall those days,where you were in a bad mood and your trying to figure out why , but to no avail.
Well that's when the "you" inside is screaming for your attention,But the "you outside" has deafen that sound
And so one day while I was alone in my room , mediating on instrumental music I was trying to figure out why was I so off mood.Then trying I suddenly thought to my self,why I'm feeling so low,and the voice inside my head said I'm hurted.And my thoughts were playing all those times I said hurtful things to myself,blame myself on things that weren't my fault.
Tears gushed my eyes,unware what caused those,but it felt good after crying.I realised that no one has hurt me the way I have hurt myself.
I feel the biggest union you could ever have,is the union with yourself nothing feels better.Apologizing for the times you blame yourself for things that weren't your fault.The truth is Conditions provoke you to take certain decisions,that may or may not be right,But even then,knowing that those decisions were right at that time is more important.
The truth is your a being with a being inside you, and the only way to be happy is take care of yourself like you were two different entities.Just like you would make time for someone you love, this time,
Make time for yourself, because no one knows you,the way you do.And no one will ever be able to give you the love ,YOU know you deserve.