Rue

It was the morning of every parties

or the get together

when I see my friends with their boyfriends

and it’ll hit me

like a bullet striking in my own head

or a wireless bungee jump

from 2, 722 ft. down below

that I could be in their place

if only,

I wasn’t afraid to take the risk

if only,

I didn’t take settling seriously

It could be the first boy

with tan skin and cheeky grin

who shyly confessed to me at sixth grade

or my childhood friend

who got scared of my father’s voice

Maybe the guy who tried to pursue me

way back in high school

or the cute guy who got my number

during an excursion

I could be in their shoes

if only,

I didn’t hate the temporaries

and now,

it would just be another regret,

another chance I didn’t take

so I have to warn you,

take all the chances you have

do not be afraid of how it’ll work out

or if it’s worth it

just try.

no one loves a seed

it takes weeks before it blooms

and so does love.

I know it’s silly to say this

when I couldn’t do it myself

but at least,

you don’t have to end up

in my shoes

before you realize

that time is life

and time is all there is.