I believe every fiction is inspired by a true story…I won’t reveal what this story is about…but I will just leave you with this one truth…it is the story of every person whom I have come across so far in my life…
There comes a certain point in our lives when we are confused about our priorities…we are unable to deal with the “problems”….and in the due course…we lose many valuable moments...and people those who really matter to us….
People usually keep asking this question.. “What can you do when you lose importance in someone else’s life who is really special for you…?”… well there can’t be a simple answer to this question….but this story will reveal..how it feels when life gives you a second chance...when happiness knocks at your door again…the feeling of déjà vu…
Certain questions always remain unanswered....some paths always remain untraveled…and sometimes your search for happiness is never complete….
Chapter 1
It is night. I keep looking at the night sky feeling suffocated and breathing heavy... A part of me still wants to believe that, all that had happened years back was just a nightmare and it will soon be over the very next morning... Unfortunately, I wasn’t sleeping..Sleep was miles away from me….I realised, whatever had happened was all real..
Those words were still echoing in my ears..They were running in my head, just behind my eyes…I looked at the calendar.. 19th February.. It is today’s date, but the story stretches far back.. I walked up to the window and could feel the breeze on my face..
Just then my phone started ringing… ”so late at night? God knows who it is!! “, I said to myself..
I picked up the phone..The voice seemed quite familiar to me..
“Hello..its Rhidhayat here.. I know I shouldn’t have called now..er.. but it is really important..”.. I kept quiet and allowed him to continue..” I don’t know how..Okay, lets make it simple..I have actually composed a new song, would you like to listen to it? “…
I wondered whether he had actually called for this purpose ...it seemed strange..” Yes go ahead, after all you somehow always manage to make me listen to your ‘innovative ‘compositions.. so just start..”..
“okay then. Here it goes..”.. he sighed..
remember..to me you’ll be forever sacred…
Forever you, forever sacred
Forever you, if you will be sacred
In your eyes I see the hope, I once knew..
I’m sinking, I’m sinking away from you.
Don’t turn around..
To me you will be forever sacred…
To me you will be forever sacred…
That was really good .. I said to myself..
I always loved his music..but i never told him that..
“Ridh it is really good.. unlike your other compositions..good job..!! but I know, you didn’t call for this.. isn’t it?? “.. I enquired..
“ yeah.. there is something that is left..”..
I waited for him to speak..
“Aakashi .. I know you for the past six years..but still I feel there is some part of your life which I’m not aware of..I never asked you about it because it doesn’t really matter to me.. what really matters is only YOU.. I had found that friend in you.. someone who changed my life completely…Er.. but things are changing now.. Yes they are.. I guess I’m slipping into the pool of love… at first I couldn’t believe it..I struugled with my own self.. but then I remembered , you had once said.. “Love moves in our lives and occupies its sweet space in our hearts so easily..and that is why it is so precious..” and I am now sure that I want to say this to you…” he took a deep breath before continuing..”I am in love with you… Will you be mine? “..
I smiled…yes.. I.WAS.HAPPY..
”I really.. “…. flashes of the past came infront of my eyes..and i stopped..
What would I tell him? Is it happening again...i don't know...I thought..
I just closed my eyes and started all over again.. "Before you reach any conclusion..you should be aware of certain things..matters which were left untold..things which were a part of my life before..and I know..well..i hope..you will understand..."'.. i sighed..
As expected..he agreed to listen to me....
I sat down on the chair near the window..it had already started raining outside...
Rain, in the month of February? strange...
Chapter 2
The hardest part of love isn't loving someone...Equations of life might be complicated..but it wasn't in this case.. the equation was very simple though tragic...first love= secret love=lost love......
"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us search for more, ignites our hearts and brings peace to our minds .. " read out Misha and closed the book...there was something different about her that day..Unlike the other days, she had dressed up neatly.. and there was something in her eyes.. which we never noticed before..
Strange..
"Hey Misha, are u fine? or is there anything wrong with my eyes!!!??".. asked Mili.. everyone was shocked to see such a change in her..
Misha was silent.. but then she preferred to speak..." People..er.. i want.. "' she stopped.. and took a deep breath.."i want to say something..".. this was not at all expected from her.. Misha and shy?? from when!!!
"I think.. i have started liking someone... umm...yes.. i have..".. she finished her dialogue....leaving all of us awestruck...
Anokhi and Muskan couldn't keep a control over their laughter and they bursted out laughing.. " huh.. now i realised why people say.. love changes everything!! " I insisted.. Misha didn't know what to say.. but.. IT had happened to her... the first person among our friends to be struck by that feeling..
"listen people... but please don't react in dis manner now... and today you people will be meeting him only..Arohi and Aakashi.. you know who that is.. ".. said Misha.. I looked at Arohi.. wondering whether she had realised who that was...but even she had the same question as mine.. WHO??
The whole day in school was a bit different from the other days..had to be... after all everyone in the class was busy with Misha that day...
After the school got over.. I hurried for my French classes..as I was already late and I had kept Misha and Arohi waiting..."Sorry sorry.. how long have you guys been waiting? and where is Rishi? he was also supposed to come.." I enquired..
I saw a sudden change in Misha's reaction..as she kind of hesitated to answer... Arohi replied.."ya he has already entered the class.. one of his friends has joined today.. so he has gone inside to help him out.. and even we should go inside as we are already late.. thanks to you!! ".. Arohi was very punctual.. and she didn't like if anyone was late.. and I didn't like to annoy her....best friend after all!!
We enterd and occupied our respective seats.. " Rishi, I asked you to wait for me, so can I ask what made you change your mind?!! ".. I tried to sound angry.. " Oho.. Aakashi.. i thought of texting you.. but then i forgot.. sorry!! anyways guys meet him.. he is my best friend.. Rishav.. ".. Rishi pointed towards the guy sitting next to him..Rishav.. seemed a calm and quiet person..unlike us!!
"Rishav.. dis is Arohi, Misha and Aakashi..".. Rishi intrduced all of us..I expected Rishav to atleast say something...but his reply was a blunt one.. I had never met a person who ended the conversation with just a "Hi!!"...
Pathetic...unsocial creature..
"Oh God.. its already 7 am. and we are already late for the office.. Rhidayat do you even realise the time!!?? , why didn't you stop me..? ".. I shouted at him as my eyes went at the wall clock.."because..I want to know.. what is the reason behind your disaproval to give way to any kind of happiness in your life.. I want to know.. ".. he insisted..
I could feel the confusion in his voice..
"I will.. but to continue the story from here.. it will take time.. meet me today then.. I don't want to cross my last month's telephone bill!!".. I tried to make the atmosphere a bit light.. but I don't think so it was of much use..
"Okay then... see you later Aakashi.. take care..".. ha finished with it and kept the phone... As far as I knew him.. the whole day he would think about this only..
I was not sure whether i was doing right or wrong by telling him all this.. but.. i had to..
The rain had finally stopped..kind of resembled my mental status... Yes.. i do feel relieved when I talk to him...
Chapter 3
I was right... When I reached the cafe I saw Rhidayat sitting in our same old corner seat.. but he looked quite different today.. had to be...*sigh*
he was looking outside.. he was holding the coffee mug..unlike the other days.. the cup was full..
"hey.. how long have you been waiting here? i got busy with some office work.. so couldn't make it on time..".. I pulled the chair and took a seat infront of him..
I saw a sudden change in his look. I had never seen him like this before,he had always been the ever-cheerful person ...which i once used to be myself..
"I don't get this, why are you telling me all this? I needed an answer from you Aakashi.. and you ask me.. how long i've been waiting? i am waiting even now...i want to know what is hindering you to give me an answer..",he said.
I looked at him,and took his hand in mine.." Rhidh.. i know how you are feeling.. but believe me...you will slowly get an answer for yourself... and remember one thing.. I do care for you.."
The sunshine struck the window panes..as i began again...
"just look at him! what an odd colour shirt he is wearing.. eww!!".. I commented on the 'new' guy..as Misha and Arohi kept staring at him. Misha knew how to deal with people..especialy when it were guys.. "don't worry.. im going and toking to him.."..said Misha and got up from her seat.. but before she could go.. I saw Rishi coming towards us along with Rishav.. I never expected the 'new' guy to mingle with us so soon.. typical nature!
"Have you guys read any books of Artemis Fowl?! I am a huge fan of it!! "said Rishav with a quizzical look in his eyes..
Rishi, on the other hand, started laughing as usual.." Man.. seriously.. first day only you are asking these girls about books.. haww!! they are not like us.. got it?! "..
Misha wanted to say something.. but she stopped.. and I took that opportunity.."Rishi.. its not that only you know a lot about books okay? ! yeah.. Rishav.. i do read Artemis Fowl..".
The French class was as usual interesting.. but this time.. it was a lot more fun..thanks to the 'new' guy!!
While coming out of the class.. it had started raining.. Rishi and Rishav decided to leave early as they had some work.. As they stepped out of the gate.. I saw Rishav looking back..as he smiled at me.. Now what was that?!
"Aakashi.. what are you thinking?!!stop..".. I murmured and slapped my head..
I went inside to look for Misha and Arohi..and saw them standing near the staircase .. They were.. i guess.. talking over a serious matter.. so i decided not to interupt.. though they were unaware of the fact that I was listening to them..
"Arohi.. see.. I wanted to tell you this first.. because I feel you understand me the best..I LIKE SOMEONE.. and i want you to guess who the person is.. for the past few days.. i am having this feeling.. i can't explain you what it is like.. but i am liking every bit of this feeling.. can you get it?.." Misha gulped..
"you have so many friends.. how do I understand who it is..give me some hint..".. said Arohi..
"umm.. you know it Arohi.. my best friend sort of..".. Misha blushed..
"oh my god!! is it Rishi?? I can't believe it!..shouted Arohi...
Believe it?? I was shocked..
It was hard for me to control now and so i appeared before them..
Misha had started blushing.. and I.. excited as always.. went and hugged her...
Someone had rightly said.. always expect the unexpected..