THE SECRET RELATIONSHIP

I ! ME ! and MYSELF ! kind of filmy but never knew these words would someday become a reason for a disaster ! eight and half months ago , when i saw you , never knew you would mean this much to me ! BOY !! may be it was kinda love at first sight or whatever you say ! but trust me i never loved someone as i do you ! you flirt a lo ! don't you .? aah , needn't ask . those days were  awesome of my school days , when i used to spy on you , do shitty things before you could recognize me ! well , you are the reason through whom i came to realize what true love actually is ! and then one fine day sent you request . those goosebumps which i got cause of you where actually dangerous ! well , later on , we became friends on face-book and there it started ! the actual story ! we started chatting , everything was going good but then i couldn't shut my mouth and i confessed ! those 3 magical words ^_^ ! i actually don't know what was i upto at that time and even now ! 

                                  that daily chat with you , it was awesome and it is even now ! ummm , you know what ! you are cute , smart enough, pretty good human for me !! first thing which i love about you is you smile ! i swear ! i'am a die hard fan of it , nd 2nd thing is that you are a non-veggie but u don't eat because killing animals for your greed is not correct according to you ! what else does an animal lover like me need a person who has this quality ! i call you as potato cause you are that cute ! i can never forget moments which i spent with you secretly ! dude ! my smile is directly proportional to u . we are full of sarcasam , we taunt each other a lot in the most sarcastic way possible ! laugh at our own jokes , blush randomly , if anyone of us becomes angry or upset , the other one would try to get back to normal anyhow ! we care for each other , i love you so much and told you infinity times till now ! i also believe each and everything between us is awesome nd so called picture perfect ! those late night chats , video calls , eye contact of 10-30 seconds , everything was amazing ! i just felt like it wa  a fairy tale ! you were always there by my side nd valentine's day when again i proposed you and requested you to stop calling me sister atleast on that day ! nd then you b'day i planned so much but ended up with 2 videos which i could make out ! and one fine day we thought of meeting and we met ! lol! it took 2 long hours to make our plan work ! we were talking talking and only talking ! and then i asked you can i hug you once? you were looking hell cute that time when you said " tu rehne de ! i know tu nahi karegi ! " and then you came near my within seconds and hugged me ! omg ! that was really amazing ! those three minutes hug was awesome ! i felt like i was all in you ! my world was complete with you ! 

                                                     and then grabbed me and kissed ! again those goosebumps !! that kiss which you had with me made me love you even more !! 

"I DON'T KNOW WHERE I STAND WITH YOU ! 

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I MEAN TO YOU !

ALL I KNOW IS EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT YOU  

ALL I WANNA DO IS BE WITH YOU !! "

                                                                     it was pretty cute when we were fighting for that book and when you grabbed my hand and took that book and hugged me from behind and said "i have never hugged anyone like this " ! dude why are you so cute ? we took selfies but none came good ! and then you dad called and you were about to go ! i actually wanted to hug u one last time and say i love you ! but couldn't do it ! coward i'am ! i love you so much but u never understood that ! i never expected this from you ! u lied ! u cheated on me ! my life was never easy ! full of problems and glad that i can tackle every single problem all alone but you broke my heart into millions of pieces ! u told you were in a one day relationship with Malini but came to know that you are ina relationship with her from past 4 months and you were betraying me ? how could you do this to me ! so u kissed me what was that ? as simple as that - used me for his own sake ! gave you a second chance with great difficult ! pleased my self and lost my self respect only for you ! i want you to call me as your girl ! you girl friend she texted me up and said " don't poke you nose between me and my boyfriend ! hez mine , don't talk to him and kindly don't disturb him ! " why i asked y ? she said " my boyfriend my rules "

                            is she a mentally retarded girl or what ? mad lady ever !she is being over protective with you ! k but then i realized for me more than you , my dream of becoming a c.a is very important! i have to adjust and i will ! all i could do is love myself ! the other secret ! even i have a boyfriend , cuter than you , smarter than you , he loves me sooooo pretty pretty much ! he promised me that he will never leave me ! and he is my pup ! my lucky [i don't consider him as dog ] ! love is not a cup of tea to everyone !

God will never take anything away from us without the intention of replacing it with something valuable and something much much better ! 

so all i want to say is , honey ... chill on , u and me have a pretty life ahead ! i'am gald that i have such a story to share with my loved once ! 

i love you so much

                          but , i love myself more than you ! 

i know you the one to hurt me most and you are the one to heal that hurt soon too

remember:-

 "the sweetest smiles holds the darkest secrets " - SARA SHEPARD 

ND "love cannot make a home where secrets and lies sleep " 

think before you step ! :) 

                                                                                                                       -by

                                                                                                                          HARSHITHA