some of us have lost someone close its hard when you remember him \her every now and then but some others never had that feeling before well i was that one .
i always hear about circle of life to lose people around you even if they are family ,friends ,neighbors or even someone you know .its hard to see this kind of feeling and dont feel lost or alone or suicidal its normal feeling that most of us has when we lose someone so close.
we all know that song ' see you again' and we like it very much but do we ever felt it ,i was wondering why some people cry when they hear that song "oh i like it a lot but i have never imagine that i would cry on it"; i always like to hear it but it was my first time to feel it after i lose someone i was like "oh thats how they feel it". .
I lost my dad a week ago and it was so hard for me to accept it because i didnot just lose my dad i have lost more than one person to me he was also a friend and a brother all in ONE. he was so kind to me ,he has never yelled at me or punished me even if i was wrong ,He was always treating me like a man or younger brother who he can count on ,i never thought that could happen to him that fast or that way .
He didn't have any kind of sickness according to his 60th he was perfect patient ,I don't know what happened but he got some kind of sickness in just 48 hours he was dead they said its some kind of microbe,its hard to accept that while you were out of the country ,I wasn't there beside him and i wasn't there for him ,i even didn't give him a goodbye kiss or hug i was feeling guilty that i wasn't there beside him.
I got the news when i came home because, i came after i heard of his sickness .but when i come i didnot have the chance to see him ,I still cant believe i have lost him till now .it was my first shock in my life and first lose i have never tried this feeling before its really horrible.
I wanted to say i miss the way you laugh, i miss the way you talk ,i am missing your great sense of humor ,i am missing the way you look at me when you mad ,i am missing the way i used to hug you ,i always feel that you are around me with the memories you left for me and your spirit is always there in each corner ,i wish i go back in time to the day you die and spend it all with you and give you a hug and kiss goodbye.
i know most of you say i still have longer life or my dad & mom still have more time to live but believe me you will never know what would happen in the next day try to be good with your family before the time pass try to spend more time with your love one's so you wont feel guilty when you lose them ,try to be in contact with every one you know because this people will be the first one who stand beside you if you feel lonely and lost in the funeral .No body is far from death and No body can change his or others destiny ,now i can say "see you again dad i am really missing you so much" GOODbye
note :Sorry for my bad english.