I'm feeling like something's wrong with me,
And I'm losing my grip on reality so suddenly,
It's all falling apart and drifting away in my hands,
Just like water falling through the cracks - or sand.
Some days are just worse than the previous,
Usually I can laugh, but occasionally I'm too serious,
And I don't know how to pull myself back from the edge,
Please understand - I don't want your pity or your pledge.
All I want is a smile to rest on my face oh-so genuinely,
Yet I ask myself each day is it ever meant to be?
I've received so much happiness from you, I must ask,
Why can't I stay here in your presence and bask...?
I don't usually feel insecure, not anymore,
I've fought my way through battles; they tore...
I came out stronger on the other side but sometimes,
I still feel like a little girl again, wanting you to be mine.
But that's not really the issue, it's that I'm hurting too,
I just find it so hard to reach out and ask for help from you,
Maybe I should listen to my cards and what they said,
Except all I really want to do is curl up awhile in my bed.
Some days I feel the blackness; the lethargy pulls me down,
I'm struggling to smile through the ever present frown,
All I want is people but somehow no one's around,
And when it gets to be days like this, I hit the ground.
All I can think about is the burden I must present,
Yet all I wanna do is share with you, so here is my consent,
Please delve into my thoughts and soul and bring me home,
To the quirky life I live with you, I don't need the life in Rome.
I'm feeling lost and so are you, can we please be lost together?
I know it's raining pretty hard, but don't you worry 'bout the weather,
Cause the sun hurts our eyes and it burns our pretty souls,
So, please, let's pass into the night under our own control.
The night brings the darkness that illuminates our smiles,
And the moon shines above, guiding us all the while,
As long as we walk together, I imagine we'll be just fine,
So, baby, would you take my hand? Our love is a gold mine.
Life hurts more than I'd like to admit and I miss you every day,
But I made a decision long ago and this love ain't just for play,
So as I trust you with my heart, will you trust me with the same?
I've said it once, I'll say it forever - this is not a silly game.
Some days I'm insecure, depressed, and I'm not really a soothsayer,
But, I'll be there as your guardian angel, if you'll be my dragonslayer,
Teach me how to live again; I'll pull you from the cavern of self-loathing,
Please remember all I want is you - not him or fancy clothing.
Will you answer my call and lift me up from my despair?
I know I've been doing poorly but I promise you that I care,
So would you let me help you smile, teach you to love again?
In return, would you just be yourself, even if it means sin?
Because I love the darkness I see inside you, it matches me,
I love the light you don't believe in, the one I always see,
Beauty loves her Beast and no matter what you think, so do I,
I'd argue your self opinion but you won't believe me, so why try?
You can fight me; try to convince me, I won't believe a word but mine,
'Cause my heart beats with a love far purer than the divine,
So take a breath and count to ten, remember me and let it all go,
I promise you that my declarations will never be just for show.
Some days I'm happy and I'm smiling - I'm probably laughing, too,
I owe my thanks to all one person and that person happens to be you,
You appear dark with an inner light; I appear light with an inner dark,
We're perfect pieces slotting together, I think X has found its mark.
So even though the distances stretches and sometimes we're called away,
"I love you, my Emperor Pendragon," and that's all I really need to say,
I'm not running; I know you inside and out - light and darkness,
Why would I ever run when both sides bring me happiness...?
I've been hurt, but I have hope, and in truth with my birth name,
I have faith in you, precious, and I am sure you feel the same,
So close your eyes, enjoy the moment, I'm not going anywhere,
I've found someone who understands; we make a wonderful pair.
And don't you cry as you read this, just take me in your arms,
Some day we'll touch each other; you'll amaze me with your charm,
I'll whisper that I love you, hold you really tight, and then I'll say,
"Remember when I wrote that poem? My love, it's some day."