SOME DAYS
On some days, I want you to remember me in your thoughts as the strong confident girl who knew exactly what to do and when. If I am to ever appear in your dreams, I want you to see me as a headstrong and practical girl taking charge of everything around and full of dreams and hopes and love for life. I want you to remember me as the girl you saw having jitters a moment before and saw her faking confidence on stage like it was always there the very next moment. I want you to remember me as the one girl who could bring you to your knees with just a slight waver of emotion in her voice - the one girl that you loved for being strong, even if it was too strong for her own good sometimes.
But on other days, I want you to remember me as the girl who cried on the phone at 1 am, for no reason at all. I want you to remember me as the the girl who fought with you for you. I want you to remember me as the girl you had your first kiss with. I want you to remember me as the girl behind the feelings you felt on 17th Nov 2009. And If you ever have a nightmare which features me, I want it to be of the moment you lost me. I want you to remember how you felt when you heard the worst news about me. I want you to remember how you felt when you looked at me crying when I had lost everything in my life but I also want you to remember me as the girl who faught every circumstance and never gave up.
I sometimes wish that you remember me as everything that drew you to me, but sometimes I wish you remember me for all that made you stay for those 4 years we were together. But above everything I want you to remember me as the girl who loved and cared for you with all her heart even when you couldn't. I want you to remember me and miss me sometimes for all that we had and sometimes for no reason at all.
~M
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SOLACE
That smile and a quick look made my day. It was like every morning was a new life and every meeting was the soul of that life. It was like comfort in discomfort. However I am smiling now thinking how I used the verb 'was' in the previous line while its still the same feeling writing this mail.
They say there's always a first time and its true coz after that things start to roll but that first feeling is something you would never forget.
To me you are that feeling and I never ever would wanna loose that feeling.
When I check my phone on my bday nite and I see your enthusiasm of wishing me, it makes me happy thinking how blessed am I to have you by my side.
G has learned a lot from M and he is grateful to have her in his life. You are a person I can turn to even in my darkest dreams. I am thankful for your attention and support and care till now and I would like this pleasure for the rest of my life.
~G