someday just maybe

I've finally got the courage
To talk to you about us
To ask you about what do we really have
To tell you what my brain has been thinking

I thought you had a change of heart
The reason why I feel the gap
I thought you've realize as time goes by
That you don't like me that much

But when I asked you
You've answered so firmly
You told me you never waver
Your feelings remain as ever

Before I thought that's all that matters
As long as we share the same feelings
That is all that matters!
But I was wrong...

For when I felt that I'm alone
Alone fighting for the two of us
Alone trying to work it out
Alone believing on what we have

My brain took over then
Telling me to clear things out
Asking me where to stand
In this US that they don't understand

I know we like each other
But not enough to fight for us
I can say you are a coward
But I understand why and it's hard

And so, I followed my brain
As I told you to fix what we have
And settle on just being friends
So I won't fall so deep as it hurts

You told me it's sad
To let go of what do we have
I can see it in your eyes
As you accepted what I suggest

If you only knew
My heart's been protesting
Against my brain who took the command
To let you go and start anew

My heart has been hoping
That you may say "No, I can't."
But that didn't come out from your lips
Instead, you told me "Okay, then."

That hurts for it proves you're not willing
To move forward with what we have
To be brave with your feelings for me
To take risks while trusting me

I never ask you to be that ideal guy
You've no idea how enough you are to me
You told me I deserve the best
But how sure you are you're not that 'best' for me

My heart has been crying
For it knows that it won't be easy
To let go for it's beating for you
And it will continue to beat stubornly

As always, I must go back to what I always believe
My mantra through the years of same heartaches
I must go back for it's the only thing I have
That Time Heals though it would take so long...

I'll just calm myself knowing it's qadr
To meet you and feel this way, it's qadr
And maybe just maybe, we will meet again someday
That time, maybe just maybe...

You'll be brave enough for US!

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