Mist—
You might be thinking that I misspelled it but you got me wrong. It's a mist. A super tiny droplets of water that replenished humid air.
You're my version of mist; my humidifier.
They said, the warmer the air, the more dry the air is. I remember that rainy summer night. When I thought I am finished and lose all—hopes, fascination, friends even love. All I did was to cry, then, I bump to you. You're wearing your stylish coat and chatting with your friends. I ruined the coat as I bump to you. I feel a familiar warmness. I didn't say sorry. Instead, I cried even more. Your friends are shocked. They thought I was dead. I bump to a neat freak but to their surprise, you give me the warmest hug I was longing for so long. My soul begins to ease. It's all because of the warm feeling that you share. All because of you.
Due to fatigue and extreme pain and anxiety, I fainted. You never leave me. You're just there. You take me to your home and hired a private nurse for me. You never hesitate. You value my useless life that I want to abandon before I met you. I started to love my life and have the courage to live. Thanks to you.
As I know you more, I gradually love you. I don't need you to love me back but in my surprise, you did. I became your everything. You became my world. All the sadness and sorrows of the past are erased by just a memory of meeting you. I love you. I always do.
I became a joyful and thankful person because you made me one. I became a forgiving person because of you. You made me trust others again. You made me trust you and I entrusted you all my life. Yes, all my life.
Do you remember the garden that we used to plant forget-me-not together? It blooms a beautiful flower. I said I will marry you when we see the first bloom together. I don't know that you'll be gone before we can see its flower. Why did you leave?
I have so many questions. Why did you leave? Don't you love me? Why did you have to go? Why didn't you come with me? Why did you go alone? I was so frustrated. The warmness that I feel begun to fade again. I miss you.
If I only knew you'll leave because of me, I will choose not to know you. I will choose to be alone and never feel the refreshing warmness of your soul. Or on the night before you leave, I will never ever let you go. I will watch over you and hug you tighter until I lost my breath. If only I knew before everything was gone, I will marry you on the spot.
I miss my mist. I miss my sunshine. I miss my forget-me-not.
Thank you for less than two years of joy that I dreamt for so long. You gave it to me. I couldn't ask for anything more. You're more than enough but you're gone.
I pick the first flower of forget-me-not and I saw an envelope near it. I saw the diamond ring and a note.
To the fairest girl I ever met,
When you read this letter, I know I'm gone. I'm sorry. I didn't mention that I will leave eventually. The day you bumped to me is the day I knew I will die in less than two years. I'm sorry, my little Kitty.
At first, I just want to help you and do a good deed before I die but it just happened that I was too selfish to love you. I really love you with all my heart, my little Kitty. Too bad our days together is numbered before we start.
I know it's not fair to leave you without excuse but I choose it to keep you away from worrying about me everyday. I choose this to enjoy our days together. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm not the perfect person you always mention.
When I offered you a wedding, I was shocked when you mentioned the forget-me-not flower. It blooms every two years. You didn't know that I purposely choose to plant it to measure how much time left before I leave you. I'm sorry. I'm the worst person you ever met.
I hope you can forgive me for leaving you but I also selfishly hope to forget me, unlike the name of the plant that we planted together. Little Kitty, you're the sweetest person I ever met, forget-me-please.
Love,
Forever yours
I wish I can do as you say that easy. I hope I can forget about you but I know I cannot. I cannot because you become my life before I knew it. Yes, you are really selfish because you didn't share the burden that you carry everyday.
I was useless but ever belittle my love for you. I will marry you dead or alive. You'll be my only groom for the rest of my life. If ever we will see in the next life and this things will happen again, I will always choose you even the ending is a heartbreak full of pain. You're worth of my pain. I will always choose my perfect neat freak boy.
No matter what happens, I will always belong to you. I will always be your little Kitty and your faithful wife though, you are like a mist that will eventually gone.