There is only one time in my life that things seemed so called "normal". I was very young but i remember it like it was yesterday. everything was perfect we were an actual family. There was unconditional love. But one day he just left us. It tore me apart, he was my father figure, my best friend, and he took care of us. I will never forgive him for that. I still wonder why he left I never really knew and I will never get the chance to find out. Maybe it was meant to be that way. Maybe he wasn't supposed to be in our lives. Just maybe.
That's when everything seemed to fall apart. My mom gave birth to my beautiful little sister, got with a new guy and then another new guy. But then she developed a habit. Drugs are so easy to fall into. She became someone else because like us she was hurt and desperate to feel something again. Anything.
But what she didn't understand it only made things worse. My sisters and I had to say goodbye to our mom for awhile. We all split up then, I went with my grandma and my sister went with our other grandma. We knew our mom would be back one day. We knew she made a mistake and now she had to face the consequences. It seemed like we were being punished too. We were hurting, we were suffering, we felt lost.
Before we knew it mom was back home again. I stayed with my grandma while she moved in with my sisters and her mom. I would stay on weekends sometimes. But nothing was ever the same. We were never a happy and "normal" family again.
Right when things were starting to look up she was gone again. She made the same mistake. I can remember feeling sad, angry, and confused all at the same time. Why was this happening? Did she hate us? Why did she want to leave us again? Just why?