State Of Mind by Ali Maloui

Words flow, lost in the echo. Memories remains always in mind. People get in and out of my life. Time fly by but never been able to make me forget. My gift is a curse that been following me for several years, making me miserable. It's unbroken, undefeated, just overwhelming. I've accrossed many faces in my life, many that I could count, yet no one could leave a mark, they just... leave! They are all the same, no exceptions. They take, they receive, they change and then they're gone. Am I a ram to slaughter? A pawn to sacrifice? Maybe. It's easier to say words but it's hard to keep'em. All I've heard is words & promises, all I get is lies & deceptions. I don't know how I got this way? Ironic is my life. I embrassed the way I am, knowing that Im right and they're wrong. Knowing that at the end of the day they win & I lose. It seems that the world is against me, that my angels are out of reach. The sun is giving me no light, and the moon is no more shining. Im in the middle of demons, watching, standing on the edge of the earth, Im falling, yet unable to crush immediatly. Everything goes in slow motion, every moment count a century, nothing new, nothing good. Im just a lost soul trying to find my way to heaven, doomed to experience the bitterness of this mortal life. Looking for redemption, searching for peace of mind; the thing that I've never had. I have no shadow beside me, I've become a hollow, I maybe there but I dont exist. This is a state of mind, you may be able to feel me out there so... Do what you got to do to survie.