The story behind the mask..
How life can change in just a few days…in just a few moments....within split seconds….people do think all this is completely rubbish and unfounded. But there was one girl…. Oh! Common I am not a narrator and neither am I blabbering out a pseudo story of some distant kingdom’s price or princess…But yeah this is nothing less than a fairytale…Well I am not embellishing the stuff…but it’s a Saga….umm….You will understand soon. So coming back to where I was there was one girl….and she wanted to achieve all the milestones in her life…Love to her was nothing more than mere deception comprising of several misleading promises, fake emotions and insanity(as in totally retard people only can resort to such weak things(love) to stay alive). She did detest the very thought of engrossing herself in such stupid stuff and marring her life. But then the most unwanted and crummy things have to happen soon else nature would lose its equilibrium!
And she met a guy (#worst disaster)…well she never talked much to any of the guys being a narcissist by birth. But that guy was a little different....let me clarify it was again a deception! Won’t go into much details of him…He just made a little difference to the girl. Because everyone just loved her, pampered her, took utmost care of her...She was a star of everyone’s eye! Many guys tried to allure her...some were just flirts…some were serious devdas types…some were just roadside Romeos…whatever be the case...but in total no one ever made her feel like she’s bad like someone really uncanny! This guy proved the notion fallacious…by troubling her with all his heart…beating, scolding, shouting, throwing stuff in fits of anger…he was the epitome of impulsiveness...and what not! Well, this is just not it! The girl lost two of the most treasured gems of her life who actually meant life to her! She was all shattered and lifeless…But in the pursuit of perpetuating some artificial relations…She couldn’t see them breathe last. This left her all the more lifeless and lifeless really means lifeless. Life paced ahead but she still carried the guilt of not being able to become a compliant granddaughter for the gems who loved her more than everything in this universe. There isn’t any sense talking all this as she was firm enough never to let go off the guilt and carry its burden till death. Coming back to the disaster relation which did not end unfortunately…Well words would speak better here. Here’s an exclusive glimpse of their conversation… would clear all the rest of the #misunderstandings #happy couple #madeforeachother and what not bullshit!
“I jus have some questions fr U.If u can answer dem i m fine with us.
1.R u urself sure wt u want in life...? One instance u say u want me...very next instance u say u break up till we grow big...r u sure abt wt u actually want frm life..?
2. Y do u olwez leave me..? Let it b ne prb...it's life...of course it won't be smooth as silk...but on evry rough patch till today u hv left me alone.
3. Is it ur ego dat olwez gets.hurt...? Or is it ur expectations?? coz f wich u leave me..i think its both
4. Inspite f wtevr i do fr us...y do u olwez think dat m just selfish... Thinking nly abt myself...i knoe u als have prbs..lik me...but y can't u understand me a lil dat i have some nervous prb...coz f wich i get depressed soon...n in dat state i m.unable to think nethin...i needed u d most dat tym...but again..u thout m selfish n u left...
4.after leaving me soo many tyms...how cn i be sure dat u r actually my life partner? Coz life partners r partners fr whole life I think...m tired f begging u nt to leave me...
Answer dis. ”
To which he plainly replied “I am not interested in answering anything…Keep your thoughts to yourself and decorate them in your head and set me free…”
Alas! Love is indeed a deception. Until and unless you don’t pester them with questions regarding your future everything is lovey dovey. She did all what she could have done to fortify their relationship and save it from downfall…but all attempts in vain! The more she put efforts, the more she was shattered! Wearing clothes he loves and she detest, eating all what he relishes and she felt lacked flavor, pleasing his parents, learning his typical and extra-ordinarily toilsome language..! Gosh, isn’t it too much for a girl who thinks love is just a void or you can say the black hole of the galaxy which gulps all the conscience of a human! Anyways, don’t be fooled. She wasn’t in love with him, in any way it was just the guilt that took its toll over her. But then relations as fake and flimsy as these have to end one day or the other! (Even the sun sets in paradise)… And the sunset finally occurred… Well okay.. It had to happen one day!
Life after a break heart….please note not a heart break (He broke her faith which she mustered after tremendous efforts not her heart)! He was fine with his life and thought he had moved on pretty well…but the girl was in a trauma. Her life became numb…still….no feelings…no emotions only a single chamber, one psychopath calling herself a psychiatrist interrogating even more worse than F.B.I, some medicines inducing endless sleep, relieving heart ache and some food…which actually never slid an inch down the throat. In that critical time, the only enlightenment that occurred to her was her Family’s love towards her… When the entire world would march against you and throw grenades on you, bombard missiles or shun your body with Ak47 guns… the only people to take those bullets before you will be your family. Well, everything happens for our own good as it is said by some anonymous yet very intellectual homo sapien. She discerned the warmth of the blanket of love; her parents encrusted her with… And eventually showed improvement from no food for days, not a single word uttered for several days, no signs of life you can say! To a girl who began to talk to her mother about every little thing (like normal girls)… to a girl who reckoned her father as the most amazing human ever born! Yes, medicines don’t work but love does #family’s love!
She started spending most of the time indulging herself in things which distracted her from his thoughts, she wore a fake smile all the time to safeguard the fake illusive smile on her parent’s face… and on the whole the situation had really meliorated! She understood the worth of her parents and like some relations break for some more precious and vital bonds to strengthen… So now from a faith broken devdas she turned into a more mirthful optimist (#fake smile still persisted) who used to feel that things do happen for our best and torturous phase of life has to end for welcoming aboard a life no less than an eternal and beguiling dream! God does justice to true people after all and a human having an unblemished heart can’t suffer for long..! God reserves its most novel creations for someone like that girl …And yes that person turned her life upside down...a total flip flop…(Though the best one) Some moments, some people do change your life in split seconds…! And they did…The mask was now shed and the face behind it unveiled….She was a girl…a girl just like millions of others but with one solitary exception… She was blessed with one of the most intricately carved creation of God…brought the smile back on her face (# genuine smile)
#A new life # a new sunrise # An eternal dream begins….
It was some two dreadful months after she broke up…A totally stranger yet wholly familiar person (#nothing less than God to her) changed her life drastically(Actually made her alive again in true sense). It was like a momentous change, a change which taught her to smile again (#real smile) , A change which made her realize that every guy is not the same, a change that restituted her faith- the belief in love(love isn’t deception after all ), the faith in God, the credence in herself, the faith that made her alive again! Well, since it was is and will be one of the most indispensable events of her life which redeemed her life back…we will go into the utmost details of this ebullient disaster
:p…. This is no less than the most intoxicating ride you can ever experience in your life… P.S :- Take utmost care of your tear glands owing to the emotional downpour in the story to unfold..
It was one very normal day that was going to turn as a pivotal day changing the life of the girl eternally… Fun part is one single message can make a total flip flop in one’s life and you can’t even decipher how and when that catastrophe happened..(#beware of messages and facebook :P) . That guy … let’s give him a name because we can muddle up since two guys are involved… umm how about “Sodium”...The most reactive element of the periodic table characterizes that guy perfectly, Since he was a very turbulent and aggressive person who used to lose his temper every now and then and would beat people black and blue when aggrieved or even kill someone with his hot headed attitude. He was kind of a dare devil who had also suffered much in his life…though that little suffering never justified his reckless actions.
Let’s have a quick flashback into his life. Sodium used to be a loner. He never interacted much with people except a bunch of few good friends…He couldn’t even look into anybody’s eye and talk… He was such a brooder person that mere presence of Homo sapiens around him would exasperate him to the core…And if the Homo sapiens multiply in number he would definitely faint. He was antisocial or anti human you can say. ( P.s:- The following terms and conditions apply for normal humans). He had a little unrest in his love life owing to the constant negligence from his girlfriend in spite of his herculean efforts to strengthen their relation. It is very tangible that she left him later…but this kind of ignorance towards him and absence of a person with whom he can share his thoughts led him to the darker side. The darker side which would have completely gulped him if the girl didn’t come into picture. That darker side would have led him to complete wreckage. But every cloud has a silver lining and this proved to be very true for him. The darkness vanished soon as a new sun rose in his life. And Sodium’s life also took a total 360 degree turn with the new rays of sunshine and buoyancy entering his life.
Coming back to the message …… One fine day without any thoughts in his mind, without knowing what the girl was going through, without having the faintest proposition of her relationship, Sodium casually sent a ‘hi’ to that girl. She also had a deserted mind (totally numb). She was struggling against herself and was amidst a huge crisis of emotions. Still she thought she should reply to him to distract her mind from those wacky and fatuous thoughts. They talked very normally like they were very cool about their life… but she couldn’t withheld the pain for long that was stabbing her heart like a dagger and she poured out everything to him and told him the entire scene ( in spite of being a very taciturn person). And there began a saga of endless and eternal love to be unveiled soon, of which both were completely oblivious…
That miniature conversation invoked something between them… it was like a spark… or like a fire ignited…Something that wasn’t so common… something very freakish… something bizarre… something prodigious! What was that neither do we know nor they had any clue about! Days passed… Nights went…Still the pain did not subside… The melancholy of an aching heart played a dirge in their hearts. Still, whenever they used to talk to each other every pain faded away, a whole new exuberance and buoyancy filled them and their hearts played symphony. Soon, they realized this and increased the frequency of their conversations. The wounds were slowly healing and little bliss and ecstasy was blooming inside. They didn’t realize at that point of time what they were feeling as they had been through some really rough patch of their lives to feel any sentiments but it was something… something supernatural! Something divine! Something unsurpassed!
Whenever they talked to each other they felt as if the time would have stopped there and then and they prolong their talks till eternity. The feeling was mutual always!;-) Well, what attracted them towards each other… was their sense of understanding for each other’s problems(They are two of the most complex human brains to have ever existed on this earth and decoding them is not everyone’s cup of coffee. Only they can do it), their complementary attitudes, their similar ways of thinking and most important of all their unparalleled craziness! (Which no one else could condone even for a moment).
The girl began to smile again (real waaali) and became like a colorful butterfly which fluttered high in the sky ….
Let’s add an invigorating third dimension to this insipid story… The story from Sodium’s point of view! Now it sounds a bit interesting...After all Sodium is far ahead of the girl in terms of articulatory skills!
Nobody can understand the phenomenon of change better than me...
I am sodium…yes the much talked about...so called intricately carved creation of god and yes the same reckless idiot too who had done no less stupid activities in his life than I bet the stupidest person on this planet! Or maybe gosh! It could even be more..
Isn’t it amazing! Someone comes into your life! A complete stranger...who doesn’t even consider you more than a prick in her/his haystack sized life and you expect nothing out of it and suddenly there it is…in front of you…all you ever wanted...all you could ever get…all...everything!
I found life. She found me. We found life. We found US.
Sodium...the name…it says it all and more than anything it was given by one of the most amazing and what can i say...special! Oh yes she was special… the most special person in this whole universe.
If i start talking about her...i can blabber for the rest of my life...She was the most sublimely beautiful creature the boy ever met.
She was a distinct creature all over. God had created a masterpiece...the one creation even god would be proud of.
She had Story in her eyes…she just didn’t had a reader till obviously a bag full of Imperfections…the weirdest human on this planet...a declared psychopath…an antisocial whacko…a nocturnally sustained lover of darkness was dropped in her arms.
She was a disaster. He knew it. She was a ray of hope in an unending night of hopelessness. She was the most courageous yet the most adorable...the definition of sturdiness yet the perfect example of sophistication and delightfulness.
She was the most alluring of all. She had a heart which could win million hearts. A golden heart with god gifted mental skills.
Her simplicity and naiveté nature could even give the naked sky a shy.
Her beauty could even make stars blink their eyes.
She was beautiful the most well-formed creation of god.
She was an example of life. The way she lived her life can never showed how painful her past has been...the way she reflects joy and liveliness would never explain the distress behind her. She was pushed...against the limits. She had support she stood up...She rose…even stronger...she learned...She lived…She is She. She is Madzo. Sodium's Madzo. I told you if I start I can keep on blabbering about her…
Some things are indefinite, some mysteries can’t be solved, every question doesn’t have an answer &you can’t just elucidate your destiny in a fraction of time. But when a substantial amount of time passes by things do become crystal clear and masks are unveiled for sure. You do come to know the gameplay, how destiny throws the dice an turns its tables on you. Love well love is such a thing… No plans, No takes, No retakes only One shot and your life changes eternally!
Love did happen, it …but the wounds of the ghastly past still haunted her deep beneath her veins. Time started pacing ahead and she finally moved on with the trepidation about her past. The saga began an eternal one! She was left bemused. She did want the sunshine to illuminate her life and cast away the bedaub of darkness which hid her beneath herself quite a long, thereby opening the gates of paradise for her. But she was hesitant. She denied herself the opportunity to be the most loved girl in this world because even the entire universe was diminutive and nanoscopic compared to how much he loved her. She made the guy realize how much he loved her and enlightened him. Deep down her heart she knew it very well that in spite of being in a derelict she still deserves to be loved. But again the hallucinating past didn’t let her open her heart to all the warmth of love that would melt down all her dismay, exasperation, and apprehension. She declined his proposal. She was perplexed, she was amazed, she was bewildered owing to the ginormous love and care the guy encrusted her with.
She took quite some time to actually discern that yes! She did deserve that much love after all! Sodium made her realize how unusual she was, how beguiling she was as a girl, how flawless she was at heart and how she should give it a try to start loving herself after all! After an initial tiff with herself for three to four days she was enlightened. Like wait! This story sounds complicating right she proposed he enlightened he proposed what the fuck yaar soo messed up? Let me unravel it for you. Sodium was vacuous to actually decipher that he has fallen for the girl. The girl also wasn’t very smart either! But the few statements like “tum meri ho” made her mind lead the path that lead to a cessation that yes Sodium loved her! The way his soul burnt seeing her with other guy # even though for study purpose, the way a miniscule scar on her leg shaked him to the core and made him ferocious! Well don’t you think this is one step ahead of being just friends? Well of course it is!
She felt his love deep down her heart and he accepted that too. But then she denied herself that love and a twist came to their insipid story when Sodium went away from her for 5 days (99 hours and 35 minutes to be precise). The days seemed years to her. She could feel the clock ticking within her and measuring every single second that passed. No sources of entertainment were murky. Everything seemed to come to a standstill. Everything was sooo crepuscular! Everything was so somber! Everything was so wretched without him! It felt as if someone took life out of her! She missed his talks, their walks, their jabbering and every little thing about him right from a little nail on his toe to the single hair on his head… every little part of him was missed by every miniscule part of her. Even the most atomic units of her body (cells of course) chanted his name every single second! She had been pretending to be oblivious to all these facts but she gave in finally! And yes she said him love u 2! :p Oops he wrote in some text editor Love you madzo( for being the craziest girl alive on this planet)! To which she consolidated with a very idiotic reply on the same editor luv u 2 ! :P Umm….well then you would be very much curious to know the story to unfold!
The most conventional couples would have hugged or kissed after such a cute romantic everlasting kind of moment to be noted in diaries or penned down somewhere to remember for lifetime. But well they were something unusually different! They rather chose to watch a very serious kind of movie together…which the girl ruined to every microscopic scene by making a joke out of every possible thing in the movie. But that platitude was more than just obvious. Finally, they did fell in love and were together for life and beyond! Umm… seems similar it’s a little hyped up and way too early to forecast a thing like that!
Days passed in each other’s arms and nights became more fulgid, life became more sprightly and jaunty! She exalted him as her everything, all her assets everything, he meant more than God to her! Her savior, Her Hero, Her Batman: p!(Though she was no less culprit than Joker) And they understood each other more and more with every passing day, with every passing day they delved deeper into each other and fell more and more in love!
The moments they spent together were very special, very jubilant! To her it really seemed like a Cinderella Story wherein she wasn’t the pumpkin but yes actually the Cinderella who was loved like hell by the prince, who took care of her like a small baby, who trusted her like there is no deceit, who loved her like there is no tomorrow, who hugged her like she is the small child stroking her head like a Lilliput, who held her hand to never leave it, who kissed away all the darkness, who brought a new sunshine (though she was his sunshine).
But if everything goes on so smoothly in life… Then again nature would fumble and lose it’s equilibrium. On every celestial path there are millions of meteorites to wreck all the possible things coming in it’s path. But that doesn’t imply the sun choses to escape. He still mettles all his strength and musters his faith to nurture to life. Very same way, Sodium and the Girl dawdled at many instances on their path to eternity, they were hurled with many stones but what always remained constant was their love which always devastated each meteorite in their path and bonded them more tightly, much closely. This can be insinuated from the story unveiled till now, but their love wasn’t just a fling like many others( #no offense meant). To them love didn’t imply giving each other roses on rose day or hugs on hug day or celebrate valentine’s day and resort to such vague and menial stuff for manifesting their love. They never needed to manifest it. To them every day was hug day, every day was kiss day, and they celebrated and cherished love every single day and every single moment! The jargon of their life was defined by their love!
What the girl felt for him isn’t the stuff written in novels or showcased in movies…it’s much more than that. Still she was the silliest Homo Sapient to abode this planet Earth. She kept on meandering the knolls and giving him pain like multitude. Though he never let that smile go off his face still she was the most foolish person to hurt him. She kept on blabbering things that were sharper than a dagger and protruded his heart out. But still as I told you the guy was God, God can put up a smile on his face in spite of the fact that his heart is bleeding! Still he never left to take care of her meticulously! He never failed…. He always jutted a hand to that girl whenever she was drowning! The girl failed his love!
She hated herself from the core of her heart. She disheartened him, she failed him, she kindled his love as a void, she broke him, she made every corner of his heart dirge but she never meant to. What she did was incorrigible. Though he never uttered a word… he was and is the greatest lover to be born in centuries…still she did realize that she was at fault. What she did was incorrigible but Sodium’s love was invincible! It was inordinate!
Sodium’s smile made her soul leer and she would lose herself in his tranquility, his serenity! The warmth of his love could melt the entire Arctic Glaciers! The way he encrusted her made her heart burn and she never wanted to let go off that castle! His bewitching charms dazzled her to the core and she forgot her existence on his mere sight! His kiss took away all the pain and invigorated a new life in her…..it made her a new her! The way he looked at her left her awestruck…. it was something supernatural! His sight made her world dance and her heart played a melodious symphony which she was more than ready to sway with for the entire life! He turned the dirge of an aching heart to a melodious symphony which chanted his name like God! The moment he said “I love you Madzo” she was filled with an all new vivacity! Loving him was the definition of her existence! She was indemned having him because she knew she would never lose him! She did put all her efforts to become a good life partner… And she just hopes things do take a turn for the good!