trying to find something worth writing ,something not lame. I found myself asking the same question "why am i not happy " ? . I have what it takes to be happy- in a third world country measure of course - I`m young ,not bad looking and not poor . I study pharmacy which is a great deal here .people call me doctor and even turn to me for medical advice ! a 21 year old girl with a few good friends and a boy friend who haven`t confessed yet -but we`ll cover that later - the electricity only goes out for a couple of hours a day where I live -long live Egypt - and I don`t often get sexually harassed although it happens sometimes . I think my problem is that i fantasize much
I daydream and I hate my reality .my problem is that I`m not satisfied,while all girls here dream of getting married and having kids of their own .I dream of wandering through Paris , riding a gondola in Venice, be in a relationship that takes my breath away ,being kissed in a private pool in Bali , taste all kinds of foods and wear weird colorful clothes .I don`t belong in here no matter how hard I try to fit in .I just don`t know what to do or where to start ! my 21 years of existence had been for nothing .I haven`t accomplished anything worth mentioning .I can`t find anything to write about because my life hasn`t even started yet . I`ll sound boring because all the exciting things are only happening inside my head . I`m the center of my own world but I don`t add to the real world . I NEED HELP AND I`M NOT HAPPY.