I don't know what to say but there's a rush of emotions right now. It always don't have to be love that can make you fall weak. Sometimes friendships are much more strange. That's why they termed it "soul-mate" and not "soul-lover". :')
Going back in time,it's 16th June 1996. I am playing and crying and learning what world is,unaware of most things, a two months baby.Probably I have no reason to cry,and yet i am crying now,'cause some soul connected to mine is struggling out to the world,to get into my world and we are crying together.
We grow, in our own worlds among our own friends and family knowing little how life is a traitor and will create problems all the way.He learns stuffs.I learn stuffs. Together we grow but with different mentalities in a completely different atmosphere...
Years have passed and I met that soul for the first time. Something happened inside me but nothing at all compared to what was going to happen next.Cross-connection. My soul dialed the wrong soul number. not my fault,their birthdays were same.
16th June 2011,I wished them both but the heart chose the wrong soul.A wrong number created a wrong impact on my heart and life.Love struck badly with the wrong soul ,I knew little that the right soul I cried for 15 years ago is going out of my hand.Phew,wrong soul phase comes to an end and I try to end my soul itself assuming my soul-mate was gone.
That one text of that one right soul on a very wrong day made my life so right.Yes,a stranger lately turned tuition-mate I had almost forgotten saved my life.Again time conspired and I forgot that soul.We talked often but little did we know our fate was woven already.
16th June 2012, I wished my only old friend to still be in contact after all the fuss I faced while I was with the wrong soul.Criticisms and judgement made me a careless,arrogant,depressed but casual kind of person.There was love,lust,friendships,break-ups,broken hearts,broken trusts and then there was him.
He was going through the same turmoil probably but when I would ask he would say nothing.Slowly we revealed each others stories to one another.Mates now that we were,the journey was the best part.Travelling in time some more we turned to each others support systems and then parts of each other.But never did we feel the purpose of us meeting was to be together.
And so loads changed and people got hurt in the process of us realizing what we meant to each other.
16th June 2013:just close friends.
16th June 2014:Soul-mates.
In all this,friendship died somewhere. Lovers we turned but mates no more remained.I miss him. I miss our journey. I miss friendship.
16th June 2015: A beautiful journey it was. Still long way to go. Just wanted to wish that person a very Happy Birthday. I love you. But i wish we still were friends. Not lovers and soul mates, but just soul mates made for each other.Many came many went,but I am your first and you are my last,beacuse they can be lovers but soulmate,there was just one. My number One. My One. :*
Today shall be special for you Mr.One, I promise . :*