(I'm not over you just yet, you're not easy to forget) well hey there, my name is .. well you don't even care about my name (what would you do ), so I'm not going to say it, you can call me Zed, Zed is a letter right? it's also the name of a novel ... yeah I like it, I like Zed (I'm not over)
sorry about what's in the brackets, it's a song, you know what, I'd like to share something with you ... I don't care . seriously I don't care about anything, anyone , hell I don't even care about you, well I know your response you must care enough to log into this site and write your story .... well no I don't care, honestly I just don't.I'm bored and I want to come here to see how many of you are going to hate me or love me"if you even read this that is".
Do you know slim shady? Eminem's REAL character? well that's my role model, he's awesome, don't you think so too? I liked to listen to him whenever I felt down, as in whenever girls at my school made fun of me, one time I didn't take a bath for 3 days, and everyone was so nice to me that day, offering perfumes, saying hi, offering perfumes, asking me to go out, offering perfumes ... then I get to class and see my disk filled with curses, you know the type you don't even know the meaning of but it still hurts because you're sure they're curses, so anyways I couldn't smell myself, I was sick, but did that give them the right to do this? well absolutely this is a free country after all ....
so onto with my story, I have a crush ( I can see you girls thinking ooooh, I'm getting tissues just in case >,<) well hold your horses, I have a crush, he's mean, he talks to a 1001 girls, and he knows I have a crush on him, whenever I walk by I can hear my name followed by a laughter. oh well, the world is mean, what can you do in an abusive family, low self esteem, mean girls, mean boys, hell even your country is mean.
So you know what I decided? to DREAM! I go into my bed everyday at 1 A.M and imagine things, yesterday I was a beautiful girl,brunette, green eyes, long straight hair, thin,kind, nice,loved by all,kissed by fire... oh boy I drifted off there, mixed things in ... but you see, that's the point!! dream it, no it won't happen, no you won't achieve it, but isn't a dream better than the fucked up reality?
So today I'm going to dream the best thing I can imagine, I'm going to dream that I can look back on this one day and say to myself, YOU DID get over your depression, now smile and move on, don't let the demons get to you.