"IT ALL BEGINS WITH A BREATH,A DEEP BREATH.HAVE ANYONE OF US EVER THOUGHT THAT OUR LIFE WILL BE SO EXCITING?EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT LIKE THAT OF SELENA GOMEZ OR JUSTIN BIEBER..WE ALL HAVE THAT SMALL HAPPINESS,DRAMAS,DAILOGUES,TEARS...WE ALL ARE THE HERO OF OUR OWN LIFE,NO ONE CAN GRAB THAT FROM US.SO WHY STRUGGLE EVERYDAY TO KEEP US GOING........WHAT HAPPENS,HAPPENS.
THE PROBLEM COMES WHEN WE ALL TRY TO MAKE OUR LIFE LIKE SOMEONE ELSE'S....I MEAN CAN WE TRY TO BE SOMEONE ELSE'S STORY'S HERO?"
THAT ALL I GUESS I HAD TO WRITE TODAY!I KEPT MY DAIRY BACK ON SHELF AS IF IT'S NOTHING IMPORTANT TO ME EVEN THOUGH IT HAS ALL MY SECRETS.BECAUSE IF I KEEP IT HIDDEN THEN MY FAMILY WILL TRY THEIR BEST TO FIND IT OUT AND READ IT.SO MY DAIRY'S SAFE IN PUBLIC.
HAVING A DAIRY THAT YOU DON'T USUALLY WRITE BUT ONLY OCCASIONALLY MEANS YOU ARE IN A SERIOUS RELATION AND AT THE AGE OF 16,IN INDIA THAT'S A LOT UNACCEPTABLE.IT'S IMPACT CAN BE GREAT!ALL THIS DOESN'T MEAN I HAVE A RELATION.I'M A PROUD SINGLE GIRL!
I USED TO BE A VERY SILENT AND CALM GIRL TILL MY AGE OF 12,THEN I HAD A MASSIVE CHANGE.PEOPLE CALL IT THE TEENAGE RUSH HOUR.BUT STILL I LOVE THAT CHANGE.BUT WHAT MAKE IT DISASTROUS IS THE SOCIAL MENTALITY.HERE IN INDIA PEOPLE ARE SO GENEROUS,THEY CARE ABOUT YOUR LIFE A LOT MORE THAN THEIR OWN.
TILL MY 15, I WAS STUDYING IN A GIRLS' ONLY SCHOOL.AND NOW AT THE AGE OF 16,I JOINED A MIXED SCHOOL(A SCHOOL WITH BOTH BOYS AND GIRLS).FOR ME AT FIRST IT WAS FRIGHTENING.I HAD NEVER BEEN MUCH FAMILIAR WITH BOYS.BUT GRADUALLY I GOT MIXED WITH THE ENVIRONMENT.AND I REALIZED THAT HAVING A BOY AS A FRIEND IS BETTER THAN A GIRL AS A FRIEND(IF IT DON'T CROSS THE LIMITS OF FRIENDSHIP).I GOT A LOT OF FRIENDS AND A FEW TRUSTWORTHY!
FOR ME TRUST IS A WORD I HAD LEFT BEHIND YEARS BACK.......WHEN I REALIZED THAT WHOMEVER I TRUST WILL HURT ME.AND IT WAS AFTER 6 YEARS THAT I ACTUALLY UTTERED THAT WORD.AFTER 6 YEARS I FELT LIKE I NEED BEST FRIENDS,LIKE I NEED MY GANG.....AND I ACTUALLY HAVE ONE NOW.BUT WHATEVER THE MATTER IS TRUST ID STILL A FADED WORD.HEART NEVER LETS ME TO TRUST ANYONE AGAIN HOWEVER I WANT TO GIVE IT AN OTHER TRY.
FIRST IT WAS MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS WHO SHOT ME.THEY WERE LIKE MY LIFE,MY WORLD...I LOVED THEM MORE THAN MY FAMILY....WE WERE 4 BEST FRIENDS AND WE SHARED EVERYTHING. BUT THAT DAY WHEN I WAS FORCED TO LIVE THEM,THEY DIDN'T PAUSE AT-LEAST ONCE TO SAY ME TO STAY.. IN FACT THEY IMMEDIATELY FOUND A REPLACEMENT FOR ME.AND IT TOOK ME 2 YEARS TO FORGET THEM.AFTER THAT INCIDENT IT WAS NOW THAT I HAD FIT MYSELF IN THE RELATION CALLED FRIENDSHIP AGAIN.I HAD NEVER THOUGHT THEN THAT I'LL FIND MY NEW START HERE LIKE THIS!