Endless Love
His favourite colors were blue, orange, and white
His favourite sport was Boxing
His religion is islame
He was born at 1996 April 5th.
We met on december 26th 2010, we were in junior school's senior year, he saw me at first and i haven't, he talked to his friends about me then they talked to me, both of us had 14 years old. And thats how it starts...
On an ordinary school day we set our first meeting, he was so shy and i had the courage to talk to him on facebook. It was a friday at midday we met in group of his best friends which happensd to be my classe mates and my best friends, we all knew eatch other. Between theme i felt so secured, like i owned the world in my hands, but once they pushed us away, i couldn't say a word at all. he walked me home but through 30 min of road we only spoke 5 min separated. But when i got home i was glowing and i felt the happiness that i have never felt before, i could give the world away for another half hour with him, that special small time we had to chat was quite ennough for my heart to fall in love from the first sight with those honney eyes, and that straight blonde hair, and that soft skine on his beautifull snow-white fingers and the cherry mouth that fieled my heart with desire for the first time of my life.
That day, all i could do was thinking of him, how beautiful he is, how shy and respectful he is, and yet i couldn't explain that feeling i had next to him when we were walking home. I couldn't sleep that night thinking of what we would be, i've waited him on facebook all day long but he didn't appear.
The next morning i woke-up on a message on facebook that says " Iactually like you from verry long ago, i just wasn't brave ennough to tell you that. Would you be my Girlfrind " . I was surprised, I couldn't answer so i went to school sparkling, and of course I needed to tell my girls about what happened because we couldn't hide anything from eatch other, so I did, the girls were so happy for me the girl that never gives a boy a chance to open such subjects is being actually asked to be someones, and the shoking here is that she has the willing to accept. Yes everyone were shocked, but i couldn't help it, how could i anyway if i was so facinated byevery little detail describes him from the first sight.
At midday i said yes, and thene my dear readers it all began, the true start of our first love story ...
after that we spent every and each hour we had together, i wake up at 6:45 in the morning to meet him a 7:10, and 8 ocklock eatch one goes to his school we meet after school at midday, and at 1ocklock in the afternoon and in the evening he goes home eats and 7ocklock he comes to my neighbourhood and spends the rest of his evening there, he even made friendships with my neighbours, and so did i with his father and little brother that i dear so much, the first days were magical, pure and innocent, the love we built in those few days was platonic letteraly sublime.
while the relationship was building faith had a little surprise for us, Valentine was comming in less then a week and i had to buy him a present but how, i had no money i couldn't go down town where presents are for sell, and my bigguest concerns were what kind of gifts should i buy?, and will i recieve a love gift in return ?
I was so comfused so affraid, but i had to do whats is supposed to be done, so i took money from my mother and aunts, and that first objectif was done, then i needed someone powerfull to take me down town, there my bff soukaina asked my brother and mom if i could go with her and her mother down town , objectif three was done, two missions were left how to get ride of my friends mother and buy the gift and then where to hide if without my brother finds it. So at the village there was a chinese exhibition of everything we need in our life like fourniture clothes makeup and Yes !! GIFTS exactly what i am looking for, something cute but goes with his old fashion, and nothing was better than a black classique watch to put it on his hands. So soukaina pretended to be asking her mother to buy her a pair of earrings, while they were arguing abut the earrings i bouth the watch and went back next to theme. Then the last mission the place where i hide the watchi couldn't leave it at home because my brother knows every detail of the house, so as soukaina's brother, so i had no solution but to hide it at Faty's place .
Three days after acomplishing my mission valentine's day knocked our dour... At 1 ocklock in the afternoon i met him in my neigbourhood, i gave him his gift as fast as i could to go back without being notticed, he was glad and told me that hee has a present for me as well and that he will give it to me the evening, i've waited with eagerness the eve but he disapointed me badly, however it was a crash that culdn't shake my faith in him, not even a little bit
And with day turning up to weeks and weeks to months the romance took her place fast back in our lives again, this time with his birthday on the doors...
It was a spring vacation he was forced to leave sidi slimane for rabat to stay with his father during the vacation, but my little heart couldn't bear his absence, so he went on thursday, and by sunday i followed him insisting to travel alone, i had to cry to fight to do whatever it takes to be with him on his birthday, and finally i succed. I went to rabat to my auncle's where i spent 4 days.
We spoke every minut and hour of each day till tuesday april 5th 2011, at 3 ocklock of the afternoon, we met in the taxi stationhe was going to be held by a care while looking for me and without giving it a second though, from all the strengh i had, and from the depth of my heart, a voice yelled out loud calling his name, with fear, love, nostalgia, but surely without gladden.. I ran after him ignoring every body else, seing just his face, and shouting one name only " Bahae-Eddine ". We hugged eatch other, and for the first time ever i felt the world spining and the only clear thing in my sight is his beautifull face and his strong arms arround my waist giving me hope, peace and warmth. my first hug ever was the best hug a girl could ever wish we walked through " La Corniche de Marina-Rabat " . that was the first time ever i feel freedom and experience it with the one i loved the most, but what made from my day a verry special day is that on his birthday he bouth me flowers while i didn't give him anything more than my love and proving him how far i'd go for him .
But as we all know every dreams ends with an awakening, and every fairy tail has an end, but in real life it doesn't always end the way we wish, and our story started to back over since that day ... At first it was a lie to avoid me then all the nearness we had started to fade away under the protest of getting ready for the final exam, i beared all that for his love, and always tried to get closer while he pushed me away, I can't deny how much he sacrifid for me and how he stood next to me against the world when they were all trying to tear us appart, he even stood infront of my brother for me, he proved me his love in so many ways, but after all that he just started pushing me away and pushing... and pushing till the day i had ennough, the day i had to do something, the day that even repares or breaks everything...
I went to his neighbourhood, called him and thene met him in our usual place, but once infront of him i forgot all the pain and my broken heart was somehow healed, and the laugh on my mouth came back again, there was a verry strong raine that day so we had to go home, and right before we hugged eatch other so strong like we knew that it's going to be the last time, and tears started fallling so strong that i couldn't separate between them and rain, then i ran back home, and that was the last time we met as a couple, because right after that evening he stopped every contact we had, during a week i tried over and over again without a response, till i had ennough and i got so furiouse that i sent him the last message to define our situation " If you are a real man then i dare u to say it instead of hidding under lies " but though i wished if the answer would be unlike my thoughts, but he said " yes it is what you think it is, we are done " not a single word after that, but to be honest that answer rocked the earth under me, i felt like if was havinga heart attack, i couldn't bear the shok, or hide my feelings, i couldn't stop my tears till i lost conscience of whats happening arround me, but everytime i met him that year i fall, his lost cost me my health my comfort my smile my peace my joy my all, while he was living his life normally...
and here i am in martch 28th 2015, thinking of a love i though it would be dead after all this time, but why tears are falling?, why it's painfull, and joyfull in the same time bringing the past back? ... I trully don't know, but to be honnest his love was the first and the verry unik love i've ever had ... Though it hurt me for 2 years.