I miss you , i miss my friend , bus mate , my neighbor. I miss my support, i miss my brother. It's like suddenly you are a whole new person. All that just gone in a blink. It's like you are gone , totally gone or even never existed. I used to tell myself that i am overreacting although i tried a lot to find my friend in the new you but he was never to be found. I was holding on a single hope that you might someday be like old times or even a tinge , but what i found was just disappointment, more and more.
But the truth is , it is all me. i chosed to believe that. i chosed to believe that you didn't change or i can get my friend back. I kept holding on the past for so long to a point that i don't even want to hear your name anymore. But this is out of hands, memories keep flashing back and i just miss the old you more and more.
It is like i want to run away leaving all that behind. I came to a point wishing that i never knew you in the first place.
what's hurting me more is that you don't deserve that , you don't deserve my caring , you don't deserve me.
When i saw you last time i thought i found a tinge of the old you , i thought i can get you back. But i guess this was a false hope.