Hmmm, hey guys let's see how my story influences u huh
So,let's start..........
I finished my 10th with 93% and stepped my foot on 11th in the same CBSE school.Made new friends and was spending time with them.Actually to let you know about me,anything that fascinates me just fascinates me for a day or two after that it bores me and i am also a little shy towards girls and only speak to them when in need.So like that one day while i finished me lunch and exit the door a girl(was cute) asked me why u were roaming and eating and i just replied "no actually i did'nt bring my lunch so i was borrowing from my friends".she said "oh" and thats all the conversation finished.Aaaahhhh friends by this time u would have found out she was my love,yeah.At that time too i was'nt influenced but was feeling happy or something cuz a beautiful girl had talked to me.The next day while leaving the class room i saw her again the feeling came and same the next day too.I was thinking "ok let me see her for one and i will naturally get bored".The next day i was postponding for two days...... and like that went on for a week.While going home me and my friend go together in bus and i tell him everything but not that.Because of him only i came to know about every affairs in my classroom.Whenever her topic comes between us i usually support her side.As the time passed she had become a good friend of mine and me too the same.She was the only girl who talked with me.Among my friends one was Ramana,he is actually physically ..... he sometimes feels terribly for that and doesnt show that out,but still she finds it out and she is the first among the girls to go to console him.She is beautiful but her heart and her playfulness is a lot beautiful than that.This was how she crept near my heart.Actually i was liked by everyone not for my look(im not handsome) but for my good and kind hearted character.May be thats how she also spoke to me.Many occasion came when we spoke to each other i dont know how to say that i was feeling hyper,happy no words to say it.I was so happy that i was about to explode.I never said this to any of my friends as they thought i was not having that character and one day while i was staring and smiling at her my friend noticed it and asked "what bro butterflies flying ?" i didnt know what to say and i accepted laughingly "yes bro ".I was relieved that at least one friend knows that.So what to say more then my other friends also came to know about that.They helped me a lot.But to say one thing that u guys may consider im crazy was how i loved her even more, that is - It was my biology class, i was asking doubt to my mam.She was sitting in the first bench infront of me.She was looking at me only and i can say that surely.while mam was explaining that she by mistakenly crashed her legs to mam's.This is were i got blown up.The way she responded by asking sorry and did one thing that i dont know how to explain(many touch bigone's feet to get ashirvadh right ) thats how she did and said sorry.Her way of doing it just mesmerised oh what a respectful girlllll.I was just physically there but mentally i was flying with wings and was laughing out of happiness.And like this many occasions came that left me stunned for about a while taking time to understand what the real situation was and may a times we would support each other and we would share simlar thoughts and we were like minded.So as days passed my feelings for her grew strong and some of my friends said wait let the time come and some said just go tell da.... and u guys would also know which i would have choosen,yes i wasnt unable to control my thoughts and feelings for her and so i thought to tell.Day before that day i was rehearsing what to say how to say.So the next day came, i was full of thoughts and scared an infinte times.It was at the biology lab,we both only open the windows daily and close it.At that time teacher was not there and while she was openening i called her by name.Oh my god i can still feel how i felt at that time.She responded "yes tell gandhi". i said "actually ju i want to say u one thing".oh my god oh my god,i can damn sure my heart would have blown if was there a bit more.U know how i felt,i was scared and i was blabering something something.she said "say gandhi",but i couldnt i was so mentally disturbed and i just couldnt say that three words.Then i just said ok i will say afterwards and went without even looking at her.The next day same thing happened.I couldnt forgive myself thinking if dont say it i may lose her.So i didnt rely on telling her,so alternatively i.... wrote a letter,actually i didnt know how to right it,so i just scribbled out my feelings.U know i wrote four pages,may be u all will laugh, yeah thats what my friends did too, but i had wrote it, how will i give ????? was the main question,so for this my friend ramana helped.The school had finished,as she was stepping outside my friend called her,i was not looking that side,she responded saying something and went.I asked my friend he told that,she had said him to throw that on my face.I was ..... thrown back.May be thats how she would have also felt,but i was selfish at that time crying in my way home telling my friend what happend.From the next day onwards i was unable to speak with her,really now im in 12th holidays and now even i feel very dejected and i asked sorry the next day itself and many occassions came which made us to speak with each other but not like the old days.Friend there is a lot to tell after that what happened but writing this only makes my to bear more and more pain.But ill say shortly,before the exams we became friends also but not truly it was i who asked her to be a freind but thought that if love her and be a friend it will be a betrayal and so i just remained dumb friend helping her everyway possible unknown to her.At the last exam thought to tell my love , But couldnt because thought it would disturb her and would not allow her to enjoy the last day at school.still i dont how there is a small faith that one day or the other she will feel my love.You all may feel sorry for me but friends dont be cuz she will defintely one day or the other she will understand my love.Freinds if anything happens like that i will sure share that happinesswith u all.thats all friends bye.