23 June 2015
I don’t know why my life and God is being cruel to me? There must be a reason. May be he wants me to be a bit stronger or my life and destiny have some other plans for me or time is testing me. But my life is turned into hell. My pains are intolerable. My wounds on my soul are not curing. Loneliness has eaten me up. I am crying secretly so the world could not watch or either laugh at me. I am standing barefoot in journey of life, I see no way to chase my dreams and that has made me lifeless. I have become a burden on my family. Each and every person in this society is taunting and making jokes on them because of me. I can’t see them suffering because of me. I am standing alone. No one is with me, I am surrounded with backstabbers who were used to be my friends and life a few years ago. The only reason I was living till now was for my love Nikita and today she left me too. May be she found someone better than me. She doesn’t even told me the reason. She will be happier with another guy. But I can’t live without her. I am in pieces but no one is there for me who can pick me up and put me together. My life is vulnerable to live. And today I lost the last reason to live. Now I am leaving this harsh world. I couldn’t survive anymore. I have decided that I will suicide. God you have been harsh on me always but please give strength to my family that is all I want. And dear diary now I am also letting you free. From now onwards I will be no more to scribble on you. GOOD BYE!
Rohit have somehow arranged cyanide pills and is sitting on his bed in front of mirror and gathering courage for suicide and then something happened that has changed his life.
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A YEAR LATER
Rohit was reading his diary again and again sitting on the floor of his Hotel’s room from the last two hours and imaging what would happen if he had swallowed those cyanide and suicided.
And then entered Nikita in the room
“You are not readied yet?” Nikita shouted. “Hey what are u doing here? You are not supposed to be with me right now” Rohit said. “I know but I have somehow managed to meet you. And why the hell are you sitting on the floor. And what is in your hand” Nikita said and sat beside Rohit.
“That’s my diary” Rohit said
“Oh! Not now. Please shut your past. How many times should I have to tell you? You know how much our have changed.” Nikita said
“You are right. Our life has totally changed. You left me without telling me anything so that I could fix my own screwed life and gain self-respect for myself. I have cyanide in my hand and death was waiting for me and I was seeing myself for the last time in the mirror in front of me and saw a faith in myself and a hope for a better life in my own eyes. And those few seconds changed everything. Now I love my life. God is great.” Rohit confessed
“Hope is everything for a person to live. And I am glad that you gained it.” Nikita said
Nikita’s phone ranged.
“Oh no mummy is calling, I have to go now and you Mr. Rohit It’s only an hour is left for our engagement. Get yourself ready now I can’t wait anymore to complete the rituals so that I could be formally yours.”
They both stood and Nikita was moving towards the door and then Rohit hold her from backwards and
Said “Hey Mrs. Rohit, You’re looking damn too pretty in this dress and I LOVE YOU.”
Followed by a broad smile and happiness on Nikita’s face they both hugged.