You know what she's scared of?
She's scared of you leaving her. She's scared of you lying to her. Of you keeping things from her. Of you doing things behind her back. Of you, being like the others. Of you, hurting her like what they all did to her. Of you, saying the words she never want to hear. Of you, becoming tired of her at the end. Of you, giving up on her.
She's afraid to trust, because you might break it the moment she fully entrusted you. She's afraid of being too attached because she doesn't know how to detach when she let you in fully. She's afraid of falling because she knew you might not catch her at the end. She's afraid of loving you, because you might shatter her already broken heart.
She got so much to consider. She had so much feelings for you, yet she had so much in mind.
But despite all these, she still let you in.
You see, she's an overthinker. Her emotions play with her. You might say, it gets the better of her many times. She's the human form of roller coaster emotions in full action.
She was just hoping you would never give up. That you would be there, though it's difficult to understand her.
But you know what's crazy? She knew it all. She knew how she reacts. But she can't stop. She can't help it.
You see, she can't stop being herself. She tries her hardest to keep it all bottled up. But the moment she sees you, it all gets spilled. She knew avoiding you might be of help, but it just made her long for you some more. It made her miss you and love you more than ever. Yes, you may think it's weird. And she's aware of it as well. Totally.
She knew you're tired as hell. You're tired of the cycle. Of being ok then after a while, you both are not. She knew you wanted peace. She knew you want to choose happiness as well.
She knew you're good. You're a kind, fine guy. She saw something in you that she would never forget. And she knew how much you could give and could do just for the sake of love. She knew you're both the same in that aspect. You both make the one you love as the center of everything.
She might have hated your choices. She might have cursed you for what you did. But you know she cared a lot. She just loved too much.
And no matter how much she wants to hate you, she couldn't deny that she's still so in love with you.
She's just too broken coz she let you in. She let you entered fully. She let you have all her guards down. She let you destroy her walls. She let you pop her safety bubble. And now, she's dealing with all the things she's afraid of, all alone. She was all exposed to the things she was scared with. She was so bare. You strip her off until she's this vulnerable. She felt naked, While you clothed yourself with the person she wanted to help her more.